Nko
- Date posted
- 1y
Hocd
Haven’t tested myself in a week maybe now my mind is trying to see if I like it now what do I do
blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Keep doing what you were doing before. You’re doing a good job! OCD will get louder and try to creep back in which is totally normal—and while you can’t control the thoughts that surface, you can control how you react to them.
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
Good job! That’s incredibly difficult and you should be proud of yourself! Sounds like you’re experiencing an OCD backdoor spike, when you don’t let the thoughts bother you or stop ruminating and your OCD tries to make you think that this means the thoughts are true. This is NOT the case! continue resisting compulsions and rumination, you’re doing great!
NkoNko
- Date posted
- 1y
@Sadie1994! Yea men private areas hop up in my mind and I kinda like check to see if I’m aroused and it feels like I am it’s so confusing. But when I used to actually imagine the images and see if I was aroused I wouldn’t be
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
@Nko I totally get that and it’s so hard not to obsess and test ourselves for reactions but it’s a vicious cycle. You have to just let the thought come acknowledge it is a symptom of your OCD and let it go. Easier said than done but will pay off in the end. I promise.
NkoNko
- Date posted
- 1y
@Sadie1994! When the images pop up in my mind out of nowhere and I kinda like check to see if I’m aroused, does that count as like falling into the compulsion?
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
@Nko Yes, it’s a reassurance seeking behavior. Best thing you can do is let the thought come and not try to apply meaning to it. It’s way easier said than done but it’s the only way through. ❤️
NkoNko
- Date posted
- 1y
@Sadie1994! Yea I made a promise that I wouldn’t actually imagine the thoughts. I feel like I failed because I’m still checking when they pop up. Even thought I’m not sitting there and forcibly imagining stuff
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
@Nko They’re intrusive thoughts. You can’t control them or stop them but you can control how you react to them. And what I mean by that is you can control whether or not you obsess over them by trying to find the meaning or analyzing your reaction to them.
NkoNko
- Date posted
- 1y
@Sadie1994! Thank you so much
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
Of course! It’s tough but I can promise it’s not forever.
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- Date posted
- 19w
I need this to end.
I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 19w
Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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- Date posted
- 12w
Hocd
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