Nko
- Date posted
- 1y
Hocd
Haven’t tested myself in a week maybe now my mind is trying to see if I like it now what do I do
blazedblazed
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Keep doing what you were doing before. You’re doing a good job! OCD will get louder and try to creep back in which is totally normal—and while you can’t control the thoughts that surface, you can control how you react to them.
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
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- 1y
Good job! That’s incredibly difficult and you should be proud of yourself! Sounds like you’re experiencing an OCD backdoor spike, when you don’t let the thoughts bother you or stop ruminating and your OCD tries to make you think that this means the thoughts are true. This is NOT the case! continue resisting compulsions and rumination, you’re doing great!
NkoNko
- Date posted
- 1y
@Sadie1994! Yea men private areas hop up in my mind and I kinda like check to see if I’m aroused and it feels like I am it’s so confusing. But when I used to actually imagine the images and see if I was aroused I wouldn’t be
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
@Nko I totally get that and it’s so hard not to obsess and test ourselves for reactions but it’s a vicious cycle. You have to just let the thought come acknowledge it is a symptom of your OCD and let it go. Easier said than done but will pay off in the end. I promise.
NkoNko
- Date posted
- 1y
@Sadie1994! When the images pop up in my mind out of nowhere and I kinda like check to see if I’m aroused, does that count as like falling into the compulsion?
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
@Nko Yes, it’s a reassurance seeking behavior. Best thing you can do is let the thought come and not try to apply meaning to it. It’s way easier said than done but it’s the only way through. ❤️
NkoNko
- Date posted
- 1y
@Sadie1994! Yea I made a promise that I wouldn’t actually imagine the thoughts. I feel like I failed because I’m still checking when they pop up. Even thought I’m not sitting there and forcibly imagining stuff
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
@Nko They’re intrusive thoughts. You can’t control them or stop them but you can control how you react to them. And what I mean by that is you can control whether or not you obsess over them by trying to find the meaning or analyzing your reaction to them.
NkoNko
- Date posted
- 1y
@Sadie1994! Thank you so much
Sadie1994!Sadie1994!
- Date posted
- 1y
Of course! It’s tough but I can promise it’s not forever.
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