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@Anonymous yes

@Anonymous I know its normal but I feel like every time I regain it I'm afraid it's a forced feeling and that the reality is that Imm just losing feelings and that rvery time I feel anything towards him or about missing him that it's just attachment.

@Anonymous That makes me happy to hear, thank you. I'm starting ERP soon, I'm just in the process of finding a therapist that my insurance actually covers and it sucks because I'm going back and forth with progress until I can find someone who is covered and the process is very long I'm scared the longer it takes me to recover, the longer I prolong this phase of "not having feelings" and is it normal to not be able to romanticize anything with him or even sometimes sexual stuff with him? is that a part of rocd or is that smt else?

@louuii this actually helps as well i know i just desperately want reassurance in the moment and I only recently learned that that's a compulsion in and of itself. but thank you so much for this this was also rlly insightful