POCD i need help- TW: sexual

I was ruminating, even though I shouldn’t be. I remembered another time when I had the weird feeling I can’t explain. It was two years back when I was playing a game on my phone and a weird ad came up for another game. The ad basically had a girl who farted and felt embarrassed. It was a cartoon. I got a similar feeling. I started panicking that I had a fetish for farting or something. I remembered that there was a video I watched on porn in the past where a girl queefed during sex and I was turned on because it was probably embarrassing. Anyways, when I saw that ad It reminded me of this porn video. Since I got the similar weird/adrenaline feeling when seeing videos of kids uncomfortable, I am afraid that it really is sexual.

POCD

Username: BoosbootsBoosboots

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 47w ago

although i do not have proper advice just know that you aren’t alone i have also struggled with sexual intrusive thoughts and being exposed to porn at an early age did not help it at all. I’ve looked into sex therapy as i do have a lot of sexual trauma and how this may have affected my ocd growing up , i also have religion ocd so that has also affected me. sometimes when i would watch porn i hated watching it bc of the “roles” that would be played like a small girl and a buff man bc it just flared up my POCD thoughts and it would just cry.

Username: userrrruserrrr

Date posted: 47w ago

@Boosboots i’m so sorry :( i don’t watch porn anymore bc it makes me anxious

Username: BoosbootsBoosboots

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 47w ago

@userrrr sex therapy has helped a lot bc i still want to have a comfortable experience with sex especially when it impacts me and my partner so i’m learning how to use sex as a tool for emotional bonding and connection instead of cheap fast dopamine (porn)

Username: userrrruserrrr

Date posted: 47w ago

@Boosboots did you ever have pocd feelings that felt real. like not sensations but like feeling like you really enjoy it. like it’s coming from within

Username: BoosbootsBoosboots

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 47w ago

@userrrr yes a lot and it caused me a lot of distress and the cycle was terrible to break out of , i felt gross i felt disgusted and just so unclean (religious ocd) and i would pray to god to fix me i struggled with it for as long as i can remember and i hated myself after watching porn but feeling like i had to do it or else i wouldn’t be able to sleep. I used it to physically exhaust myself from the intrusive thoughts of the day but i hated how THAT was what i had to do

Username: star1232star1232

Date posted: 47w ago

What types of porn do you watch ?

Username: userrrruserrrr

Date posted: 47w ago

@star1232 i don’t watch it anymore but in highschool i watched a lot

Username: star1232star1232

Date posted: 47w ago

@userrrr Yes me too since my obsessions started last year I stopped it, i started watched at age of 14 💔

Username: MichelleBrando55MichelleBran...

Date posted: 46w ago

I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but please know that you're not alone in experiencing these types of thoughts and worries. Remember to be kind to yourself and understand that having these thoughts doesn't define who you are as a person. Keep reaching out for support, as talking about your experiences can be really helpful in navigating these challenging thoughts and feelings. By the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called "unstuck"? I've been in a similar situation before and my NOCD therapist recommended it to me. I think it'll be especially helpful for you because it provides personalized step-by-step support when OCD gets difficult, just like an OCD therapist. I hate when people promote stuff, but I really think it can help you because it's changed my life. Lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: userrrruserrrr

Date posted: 46w ago

@MichelleBrando55 but its feelings not just thoughts :(

Username: nlnnoaia

Date posted: 5y ago

POCD TW I was scrolling through Instagram and saw a picture of a little girl and suddenly I had the urge to kiss or touch her or something it scared me a lot and I started scrolling faster to get away from it BUT I felt a groinal response and it felt SO real like butterflies and twitching and itching and everything maybe even vaginal lubrication and I had the urge to masterbate and scrolled back to make sure I don’t desire this and I felt calmer when I didn’t feel anything looking at her again but I still feel anxious and kinda aroused during the day thinking back to the situation I don’t know what to do it feels so real the urges and everything ?

Username: sunshineandr...

Date posted: 1y ago

Internet not being regulated as a teen

Just a heads up this is a little NSFW So I’ve had POCD for a hot minute, since I was 18. When I was 15-17 I can’t remember the age could have been 14 I don’t know. I went on Wattpad and would look for like smutty pictures. I remember I kept going back to this one book because it had a lot of chapters and images. It had a lot of dipper from gravity falls and even one with him and that triangle dude. I feel gross because I kept going back. I do know I didn’t like that it was that character I just liked the fact the images were sexual in nature but as I type this I don’t even know if I liked them but kept looking out of curiosity? I think I’m replaying the memory too much. I don’t wanna ask for reassurance because I know it’ll only add temporary relief but I needed to get this off my chest because I feel like a terrible person. I’ve also seen the Simpsons like all characters that was disturbing. Basically it’s under rule 34 (if it exists there’s p0rn of it) but I was a horny teen/kid on the unregulated internet and I sometimes wish I never had a phone when I was younger. Anyway I feel like a terrible person and just wanna know if I’m a creep or not…

Username: anotherocd123

Date posted: 1y ago

POCD

Yesterday I was helping a child change and I was touching their skin for some reason (helping them pull up their pants or something) and then I was like “wow their skin is so soft and then I had a bad thought and then backed away. I’m really scared I am I p*do pile and did I touch them inappropriately?? I don’t want that answer to be yes or else I’m gonna throw up. I feel like I should’ve backed away when I was touching their skin soft but it felt like I was in slow motion. I’m so scared.

POCD

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

POCD i need help- TW: sexual

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community