feeling like a bad person 18+

Broke up with my boyfriend today and feel like crap. we love each other dearly but I hurt him about six months ago. An of and on friend of mine was someone who knew me very well, we had quite the history, and still remained friends after all that. My boyfriend thought he was in love with him and I loved him. I didn’t believe it and I still ended talking to him. Deep down, all I wanted was the truth my friend was hiding for me for two years. He said he went to UT but actually was going to the community college instead??? He lied about a lot of things he said to me and everyone told me what they thought, but even with that I wanted empirical data. This obsession broke my boyfriends heart. I got passed the problem and block my friend after he stalked my boyfriend and I behind my car in a bmw. My boyfriend never got over it though. Last night my boyfriend said he wanted a break, he said we were drifting apart, which was utter bs reason. So, after my classes were over he met me in my car. I told him I couldn’t do a break, you either have me, or you don’t. So I broke up with him. He explained how he’s been heartbroken over my friends and I situation together for the last six months and has been suppressing his pain. The guilt that hit me was shitty. I feel like a shitty person. Although I didn’t ever cheat, it feels like I did bc I crossed a line. All I wanted was the truth and I allowed my ocd to decide the faith of my relationship. We were crying in my car together for an hour while hugging and talking. I think we left of good terms since we do deeply love each other although he couldn’t get over that. That’s what is killing me. How much I hurt him and I feel so selfish for not seeing it and I can’t stop crying. My ocd is telling me how shitty of a person I am. Ugh this rant helped lol.

Guys. I feel overwhelmingly terrible. I made a mistake and flirted with another guy at work while I’m still in a relationship. Me and my bf have been dating for 10 days. It wasn’t a sexual flirt but a lowkey one. I feel as though I cheated on him and I keep replaying what happened in my head. I can’t stop thinking about it. I confessed to my boyfriend and he was a bit upset but not too upset. I then, told him it was a joke and he laughed. But it’s really not. I feel like a terrible person. I will never make this mistake again but still

So I made a mistake and I need to confess to someone. Me and my girlfriend have been on a break because of relationship shit. An exclusive break. I think you can see where this is going. Then whilst I'm travelling abroad I might this lovely girl and I'm attracted to her but I don't think twice about it (don't want to obsess). Fast forward and me and our group of friends, including her go drinking. We get drunk. Then there's three of us and we go clubbing and I feel the tension between us and I address it and tell her I have a girlfriend and I don't want to cheat. She's completely fine with it. Cool right? But still I feel so guilty because we were too close when we danced, and I held her hand because I was just happy to be around someone that got me and I would never see her again because the next morning she's flying back to her own country. I kiss her cheek goodbye and I leave pretty happy. I also remember telling her I wanted to kiss her (but I didn't want to because relationship) and I feel so so so so so so so bad and guilty I feel so shit. Okay I didn't cheat but why did I say those things??? Why did I do that??? My intentions weren't to flirt, I was just happy in that moment. But still I can't believe it was me who did that. I'm in denial I don't know. I feel so bad. I don't know how much I should tell my girlfriend and we're complicated enough as it is. I'd appreciate it if someone listened without too much judgement I know I did a bad thing