i’ve been having these really bad overthinking thoughts that maybe i’m not a lesbian and it’s all been a lie but i do love women i’ve never been attracted to a men in the way i’m attracted to a women but i keep thinking im gonna become straight and i’ve been living a lie but the thought of being with a men makes me wanna cry and throw up.
wow, reading this really made me feel like someone copypasted my daily fight with ocd and posted it. im so sorry my friend, that sucks big time, id never wish this hell on anyone. youre not alone in this fight, okay? lesbians stick together, no matter what, youll always have a home in our community
@the.netherlandsss Do you have tocd too?
@the.netherlandsss how do you keep a good relationship with your partner while you suffer with these ugly thoughts?
@star1232 i do, and it’s. frankly awful, i hate myself for it. it’s a constant uphill battle, but all i can do is fight, yknow?
@Karla1010 funny you ask that, my partner and i just had a major fight over my symptoms. he just came out as a trans man last night, right after i made this comment, and now i’m struggling to prove that my ocd isnt me, even though it’s tough. i’m gonna do the thing i feared most, and be just “sapphic” for the time being. in hindsight, this might’ve been the push i needed to start getting over my ocd. i dont know, but i’m not letting my ocd ruin the one good thing i have left
@the.netherlandsss i’ve liked this girl for so long and i started to feel my symptoms start and i’ve been distance with her but i really do like her a lot and i want something with her but my ocd thoughts don’t help me at all
@the.netherlandsss Yes its the hardest thing in life 💔 i know you re female and want to keep your feminity
@star1232 thank you for the good faith response, im just agender actually 😭 i obsess over being binary trans lolol
@Karla1010 make your move!! is she aware that you have ocd? bc that might be a good disclaimer to give her, let her know that you really really do like her, but that youre also working through something and will need compassion during this period
@the.netherlandsss I mean u re female and you still wear feminine clothes and so on ?
@star1232 uhhhh nope :’) im nonbinary and i just present how i want?
I am a 18 year old masc lesbian with a loving girlfriend for 1 year, and I have been lesbian for almost my whole life and I have never been attracted to men in any way. flash to my past, My ex girlfriend who used to identify as a lesbian had cheated on me with a man. Recently I saw this tiktok of this masc lesbian turn straight and my friends and girlfriend made jokes I am going to turn straight for my male best friend. My male best friend came over and he’s a great guy but I do not want him in any way. when him and i were hanging out my mind threw in a thought it was “What if i like him”, i came back home and i had the worst panic attack and i felt so sick, i cried and i cried. ever since that day I have been struggling with intrusive thoughts, i don’t want a man in any way, and i feel comfortable as a lesbian but these thoughts won’t stop and they become worse when i see people say being lesbian is a phase or that i haven’t met the right guy or i’ll change in the future. i just want these thoughts to stop, i don’t want to stop being a lesbian ever, i love women so much and i just want all of this to be over with. i do not want a man in any way and im tired of my thoughts doubting myself and i hate the “what ifs”, I just want to be my old self, I want to be happy with my girlfriend.
I have been doing okay for the past week or so and was really happy i felt that i was getting back on track, but today i went on tiktok and i saw something triggering which was “i thought i was a lesbian for 4 years until i met my now boyfriend” and it triggered me very badly, i have been crying all day and i can’t seem to make myself feel okay. i feel like im lying to myself that im not lesbian and i truly want men, but when i get any thought about men it feels disgusting and wrong and not me, i don’t want men i feel so sick i want to get out of this. i always felt so happy as a lesbian im so stuck i don’t want to be with a man. i have a loving girlfriend i just want to be happy with her.
hi i’m a lesbian! and i have known im a lesbian for a really long time and i have a sweet girlfriend of 1 year. it all started when i saw this masc lesbian come out as straight, after that i had my guy friend over and he’s a sweet guy and he was flirting with me (he didn’t know i was gay) im not sure but i panicked and my brain froze and i was like “do i like him”, ever since my brain has been over worked 24/7 for 2 months now and it’s spiralling constantly. im trying to control it but all these thoughts are so disgusting and my brain tries to put him and i in scenarios that make me uncomfortable and i feel panic and i hate it. i have always been comfortable being a lesbian and i still am comfortable as a lesbian, but i dislike these thoughts i have about him and men and i want it to be over. i do not want to experiment with men even tho my brain is telling me i do, i find it disgusting and i dread it, i have a sweet girlfriend and i want to be with her forever, i do not imagine anything with any men and i hate these thoughts. im scared of becoming bisexual/straight one day and i hate hearing sexuality is fluid. its a whole mix of comphet and so-ocd
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