I feel lost

Me and the guy I’m seeing are taking a break, he said that he won’t be seeing anyone else but can’t make any promises as to what’s gonna happen after the break. I just feel so stupid. The guys friend took me aside and told me to keep it calm and don’t over do it and now I think I’ve done exactly that! I know he’s going through some stuff and this break has nothing to do with me at all but it feels like I’ve done so much wrong! We’re still talking and stuff but he needs space and idk how to give it. I feel sick thinking about losing him but l don’t know what to do

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Date posted: 1y

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stuckonathought

Date posted: 1y

@bekind94 But it hurts so bad. I love him so deeply and now I’m being told he doesn’t know where he stands with us anymore. I’m gonna try really hard to keep the contact to a minimum after today, it made me upset to speak to him and knowing he wants space just made me feel worse. But I love him so deep that this feels so wrong. A couple of days ago he was calling me his torch in the dark, but now I feel like I’m just a weight in his shoulders. I feel like I’ve annoyed him, that I’ve been too much for him. We aren’t even an official relationship because he’s going through a lot rn and can’t handle the pressure, but he asked me “do you call me your boyfriend” because his sisters friend told her I do when I only ever say we are exclusive not official but now it’s like oh you think I’m some sorta psycho, I didn’t play it cool and now I over did it I was too clingy I was too in love with you and you got the ick! I’m beating myself up even though he’s told me plane and simple that he is going through some stuff and needs to sort it out. But I still blame me. I’m trying so hard to work on myself but then I picture all the fun we had and it hurts like hell. Also I’m sorry you’re going through something similar. It’s hard

stuckonathought

Date posted: 1y

@bekind94 I don’t even know if he still has feelings for me or not, like he hasn’t said he doesn’t he says he’s just confused on trying to focus on himself and better himself, he says I mean a lot to him but idk what that means when it comes to us. Saying he doesn’t know where he stands. I just miss him. I’m trying really hard not to let him be the defining point in my life because up until this point I was growing and I’ve taken a step back thinking he hates me. I know he is going through some things, things that I have been there to help him with. But I was going through an anxious stage and just think both of us going through something didn’t help the other figure out how to be okay. I’m not gonna text him, tomorrow I’m gonna be leaving all my messages unopened and I’m not gonna go out of my way to message. I’m also currently traveling for 3 months so it’s a bit of a hard one to stop thinking and to get out and do stuff when I’m constantly feeling upset. But I will do that!

stuckonathought

Date posted: 1y

@bekind94 I’m trying, I really am trying. I can’t do anything about it anyway so no point in dragging out the thoughts

stuckonathought

Date posted: 1y

@bekind94 Thank you that’s very kind that you’d wanna help me

Bunnyox

Date posted: 1y

Atleast he told you and not ghost you , ghosting is the worst!

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

I think he hates me

So I was talking to this one polyamorous guy but we had been friends before we started talking romantically. Anyway one day he has a mental breakdown and he says he can't do polyamory rn (for reasons I won't get into but I think they're valid) and I was like that's fine. But now it just feels like we can't talk to each other. I am either terrified that I won't be able to talk to him cause I will be too upset or I am terrified he won't talk to me because he hates me. We used to talk nonstop everyday but now we haven't talked for three days. And I don't know if it's me or him, or maybe I am just losing it. But all I want to do is talk to him. I am always checking his socials just trying to see if he's online and wondering if he will or why won't he text me. Anytime we do talk, it's always like a two sentence exchange. Maybe it's him, maybe he needs space, but everytime I see him (we go to college together) he seems to be happier, everytime he posts on twitter he seems happier, I don't know. I just want him to like me. I want to talk to him. I am scared I have to stop talking to him completely, because in the past I have never gotten over someone unless someone else comes in and takes their place so it isn't like we can take a break and then I come back and everything's good. It would likely take a long time, and it's only been like 4 months since we started talking 😭 (I am so cooked). I don't know why I am like this. I wish I could be normal about him/other people. I don't know if I am just in an OCD spiral or not, but I just want it to be over. Sorry for the rambling, but if anyone has any advice I will consider it.

ocdhaver_123

Date posted: 21w

Break up

My bf and I just broke up and I haven’t felt this sort of heartbreak in a very long time. I’m crying all the time and can barely get out of bed. Idek what to do with myself and I’m terrified I’m going to relapse because of all the added stress. I think us breaking up was the right decision but it hurts so fucking bad idek what i should do anymore. I’m not normally the emotional type when it comes to situations like this either. Any advice?

Gmoki

Date posted: 19w

Bf broke up with me/said he needed a break

My ocd is going crazy - I feel horrible and didn’t see this coming. I can’t stop crying please help

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