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I Just can't stop thinking about It
Not even for a minute. This Is exhausting. I'm trying to say ok maybe you are or you are not, Who knows, but I Just can't stop thinking and trying to solve this.
Not even for a minute. This Is exhausting. I'm trying to say ok maybe you are or you are not, Who knows, but I Just can't stop thinking and trying to solve this.
Same here, just yesterday I was thinking that I don't know how long I haven't gone a full day in which I don't think about this, interrupted I think it's been more than a year since this has left my mind for a day, and it was because I was worried about my health, where I forgot about this for several months
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@Ilovemyhusband0322 Same. And my husband just told me, “I saw that you are researching if ocd is real. Are you still having those lesbian thoughts? Or what’s going on?” I thought I would panic but I didn’t. I almost wanted to laugh. I told him, “no not that theme, just ocd about ocd.” He said, “ I thought you were recovered?” I’m far from that
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Yes. That’s how kind started. I think we talked about this months ago.
@Ilovemyhusband0322 I think so.
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Yup! It’s the worst thing and theme for me
@68273 My therapist told me she thinks we should just do maintenance and maybe we should because in addition to this theme, I’m having ocd about ocd. I want to recover so much that I’m doing so much rumination about ocd and researching
@68273 I was going to look into icbt. Erp is all about dealing with uncertainty. Icbt says , why should you live w the idea that you maybe “z, y, and z?” Just because you have ocd? That’s not fair
@Ilovemyhusband0322 What did you find? You might not like this but that’s a compulsion, googling it.
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Mmmm, that’s not true. I have an article about hocd and this very topic.
Getting myself into a spiral trying to figure out if I actually am in love with my boyfriend. Have I just been pretending? How do I know I ACTUALLY love him and not just the idea of him or his love and affection? It just feels like this pressing and intense question lately. I know I can’t solve it by ruminating bc I have been in the same themes for almost 2 years and have never gotten closer to “figuring them out”. Just so hard to stop trying to figure out if I actually love him or not today.
I’m tired of thinking about the same OCD thought to “kill mom” it just doesn’t leave. I try to break the cycle but when it’s broken it just sits there and waits to be interacted with. Idk what to do im tired of it. And it makes me feel like a psycho path and I’m tired of not feeling like myself.
I know the solution is to always say “yeah that could be true, but I am choosing to live my life anyway.” However, I feel like my biggest issue is my brain always assuming that it is immediately true when I do that. Like if I say “maybe I’m attracted to teenagers, it’s possible,” then my brain INSTANTLY starts rationalizing that thought and defending it and being like “oh okay so you think this now and it makes sense because xyz, and now that’s who you are and your real desire is now and always will be teenagers.” I feel really alone in this area of feeling like my brain “accepting the thoughts” means my brain immediately accepts them as true. I obviously don’t want to think they’re true but I feel so stuck now.
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