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Today I woke up feeling pretty numb to everything and now like whatever thought comes to my head (bad or good) I have no emotion towards it. I almost feel like I feel better but this is weird
Today I woke up feeling pretty numb to everything and now like whatever thought comes to my head (bad or good) I have no emotion towards it. I almost feel like I feel better but this is weird
Yup going threw the Same, I don’t have anxiety anymore but just the feeling of just stress and exhaustion. It feels convincing at this point, someone mentioned it’s peaking rn for me. But I’m just sad honestly feels my identity was taken from me, but I started therapy so let’s see how this ride goes. But yes it’s very uncomfortable knowing that my body almost accepted the fact that my life is over “feeling” nothing matters. But it shall pass one day 🙏🏼
@Anonymous well for me it’s like I have no anxiety or just emotions towards the thoughts, I also have barely even had them today but I’ve been dealing with it pretty severely the past two weeks so maybe I’m getting better or just shutting down?
@Anonymous I do know what you mean though, I at times feel like my body just has accepted it and that’s why I feel like this, it’s almost impossible to tell someone everything about this because something always comes up
I mean more less I’ve had decent days where my ocd was not as bad still the fear of being gay was still there but I wasn’t in rumination all day trying to figure things out in my head. But I got used to the fact that ocd always comes back and ruins everything good (back door spike) & that’s because I’m barely getting help now and know it’s a marathon not a sprint to recovery. But it can be the depression and just negative thoughts and sadness I feel thats not making me react to anything anymore because unfortunately this doesn’t just “get better” on its own. I wish it did; I also wish I could out think this but that put me in a deep whole to a point of doubting I’ll ever get better. That’s severe doubt for me gives me “the no anxiety numbness feeeling now” so I just hope my true self comes back threw recovery
@Anonymous that’s interesting you said that this just doesn’t go away on its own, I dealt with this for about a year like 4 years ago and now it came back recently but worse so I wonder why that is
@random3 It’s very unfair, I do want to give up honestly. I don’t like knowing the fear can possibly come true but I know life at one point will never let my fears come on top and we will be set free. Just only thing is, this is something unfortunately needs a helping hand and tools to overcome. Big part of my deep sadness about this is also knowing it can come back etc and people relapse. & to me that makes me very scared of the future but stay strong. Don’t give in no matter how real it feels, use those tools and trust life Weill turn for the better one day 🤘🏼
@Anonymous thanks man, I also want to let you know something that’s been helping me is reminding myself that these thoughts are just thoughts. I don’t believe the fear of it happening makes it become true, I believe that you are born with your preference and people like us with OCD just have a hard time with obsession about everything about ourselves. Anyways, I wish you the best man and I’ll have you in my prayers
@random3 Same man 🙏🏼 thank you
Hey everyone, I wanted to come on here today to just share this post because I’ve been struggling with this recently. I just wanna know if this is a common thing in relationship OCD. So last Friday me and my boyfriend had a conversation that was important, and my emotions were high and I got a little emotional about something he said and we had a long talk about it, the conversation went great and afterwards everything was okay. On Saturday I was so excited to see him after work and I was overflowing with feelings of happiness and excitement. Sunday was great and we stayed on FaceTime just enjoying the day together after he went home that morning, and then came Monday. I remember getting a thought like this, “What if I’m losing feelings for him and I’m just leading him on?” And even this thought, “I don’t really feel anything towards him right now, does that mean I fell out of love with him?” And then the anxiety came, I could literally feel myself breaking out in cold sweats and I could feel the pain in my chest after these thoughts crossed my mind. But what bothers me so much about this is on Saturday and Sunday I felt so content and happy with him and I was so happy and I didn’t have any anxiety whatsoever, and then Monday came, and I had those thoughts and I feel almost numb and I can’t feel anything else except the feelings of worry and fear and my anxiety has been at a all-time high and I keep feeling this pain of guilt and hurt in my chest and I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced the same. Because personally one thing I hate is that one day I can be so happy and energetic and then the next day I can feel numb and feel absolutely nothing towards my boyfriend. I’m not sure if this can correlate with my menstrual cycle as well, but I’ve heard that that can also make your relationship OCD worse and cause you to feel differently about your partner. Just wanting to see if anyone has dealt with the same!
For 3 days I had a feeling that came up pretty often and I cant name it, I dont know what is it and the more i try to see what is it the more i feel worse. Usually letting feeling be and letting yourself experience it helps but not with this. I find myself feel grumpier, triggered and more angry. Its a mix of fear, but then i get angry too and I dont find letting myself experience it helpful cause I just stuck there. It feels like its in my chest and when it gets triggered it makes things hard to enjoy. I tried to be kind with myself and see what causes it but trying to be kind with myself triggers this annoying feeling and it just gets worse... i dont know what helps thats why i ask your help, if you ever experienced this... also i what i almlst forgot to mention, what is really important is that i became really sensitive to every thought, and any thought can trigger this feeling or any thought can trigger a negative feeling that will trigger this feeling. And honestly the "just accept it and let yourself feel what you feel" doesnt helps here cause i find myself really angry that i have to let myself feel the emotions that are triggered by these intrusive thoughts...
It hurts so much to write that. Lately, every time I talk to my boyfriend — whether it’s through text or in person — I feel this deep irritation, like everything he says or does annoys me. Sometimes, it even feels like disgust, and it’s terrifying. I don’t feel love. I don’t feel excitement. I don’t even feel sadness about not feeling anything… just numb. I look at him and I don’t feel like I used to. I don’t know what happened to me. I used to be so sure I loved him, and now I feel like a completely different person — cold, distant, empty. My brain keeps telling me: “You don’t love him anymore. You never did. You’re only staying out of habit.” My mom told me that if I don’t like him anymore, then I’m hurting both him and myself by staying in this. And hearing that broke me. Because that’s exactly what I fear — that I’m faking everything, and I just don’t want to admit the truth. I feel so lost. And I don’t know how to separate my thoughts from reality anymore. All I know is that I want to feel something again — anything. Because right now, all I feel is guilt, fear, and confusion. i used to know these thoughts are just thoughts and that if i didn’t have them i would be so happy but now, i cant think aboyr that bc the thoughts feel too real.
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