random3
- Date posted
- 1y
Can Anyone Answer
Today I woke up feeling pretty numb to everything and now like whatever thought comes to my head (bad or good) I have no emotion towards it. I almost feel like I feel better but this is weird
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
Yup going threw the Same, I don’t have anxiety anymore but just the feeling of just stress and exhaustion. It feels convincing at this point, someone mentioned it’s peaking rn for me. But I’m just sad honestly feels my identity was taken from me, but I started therapy so let’s see how this ride goes. But yes it’s very uncomfortable knowing that my body almost accepted the fact that my life is over “feeling” nothing matters. But it shall pass one day 🙏🏼
random3random3
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous well for me it’s like I have no anxiety or just emotions towards the thoughts, I also have barely even had them today but I’ve been dealing with it pretty severely the past two weeks so maybe I’m getting better or just shutting down?
random3random3
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous I do know what you mean though, I at times feel like my body just has accepted it and that’s why I feel like this, it’s almost impossible to tell someone everything about this because something always comes up
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
I mean more less I’ve had decent days where my ocd was not as bad still the fear of being gay was still there but I wasn’t in rumination all day trying to figure things out in my head. But I got used to the fact that ocd always comes back and ruins everything good (back door spike) & that’s because I’m barely getting help now and know it’s a marathon not a sprint to recovery. But it can be the depression and just negative thoughts and sadness I feel thats not making me react to anything anymore because unfortunately this doesn’t just “get better” on its own. I wish it did; I also wish I could out think this but that put me in a deep whole to a point of doubting I’ll ever get better. That’s severe doubt for me gives me “the no anxiety numbness feeeling now” so I just hope my true self comes back threw recovery
random3random3
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous that’s interesting you said that this just doesn’t go away on its own, I dealt with this for about a year like 4 years ago and now it came back recently but worse so I wonder why that is
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
@random3 It’s very unfair, I do want to give up honestly. I don’t like knowing the fear can possibly come true but I know life at one point will never let my fears come on top and we will be set free. Just only thing is, this is something unfortunately needs a helping hand and tools to overcome. Big part of my deep sadness about this is also knowing it can come back etc and people relapse. & to me that makes me very scared of the future but stay strong. Don’t give in no matter how real it feels, use those tools and trust life Weill turn for the better one day 🤘🏼
random3random3
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous thanks man, I also want to let you know something that’s been helping me is reminding myself that these thoughts are just thoughts. I don’t believe the fear of it happening makes it become true, I believe that you are born with your preference and people like us with OCD just have a hard time with obsession about everything about ourselves. Anyways, I wish you the best man and I’ll have you in my prayers
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
@random3 Same man 🙏🏼 thank you
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