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Cleaning ocd
That a question: how many times do you wash your hands if you struggle with that , i need to know numbers and thank you šš¼
That a question: how many times do you wash your hands if you struggle with that , i need to know numbers and thank you šš¼
Depends on the day, how many "contaminated" objects I encounter, and how many times it takes to make it "feel just right" to my mind. On a good day, maybe only like 2-4 times. On a bad day, could be literally as many as 50 times or more, not an exaggeration.
I have constantly been feeling like if I hit one arm, I have to hit the other and if I set something down and it just didnāt look right or feel right I had to do it again or I had to move it to a different spot in my room Iāve had never been a clean freak, which is mainly what I get told is OCD And I donāt know if I should even have this app. I donāt know if I actually have it. Iām constantly worried that I did something in my past that harmed others and thatās why people donāt like me or Iām constantly worried People are constantly watching me and I donāt know if thatās OCD or if I have it so please tell me I will delete this app and never think of it again if I donāt I just really wanna know
Iām losing it completely, Iāve never had a flare up like this with contamination. Iām so burnt out seriously , I feel like Iām going insane. My hands are cracking and bleeding from washing them and my familyās getting very tired of me , they think I should go stay in a hospital or something for a while because of how bad it is. OCD as taken away my relationships with people , I canāt sit on the couch anymore with my family , I canāt hug my dog anymore , I canāt relax ever. I just needed to write this down as I really canāt process my feelings right now as I have too many thoughts , any advice?
I have contamination OCD that causes me to excessively wash my hands/clean items with disinfectant wipes. I know I just need to start with small exposures but how do I do that without spiraling? I tried a while back by just touching the outside of my dishwasher and not washing my hands after and it led to me being unable to even exist in my house. I basically lived on my couch for three weeks as it was the only 'safe' space that I had not touched with my dirty hands. I had to take a week off work to clean my house to make it somewhat liveable. I still haven't got round to cleaning everything though so things like my kitchen are still no-go zones that I don't enter. I just don't know how to start ERP without it making everything worse. Any advice would be appreciated. I am not seeing a therapist at the moment due to financial constraints.
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