- Date posted
- 1y
Suicidal Intent
I have been dealing with my OCD around politics and it has completely taken over my life. I can’t stop see the cruelty, infighting and controversy that circulates in the news everyday. I am unable to do my work or even take naps without having panic attacks. My mother yells at me and calls me insane. She says I am choosing to suffer and I am going to lose everything. I bought my girlfriend a ring and I was going to propose to her in our Norway trip next month, but she keeps crying when she sees me spiral. She has seen me hit myself and say I want to die. She can’t take anymore. I’m losing my mind and will to survive with each passing day. I can’t see the love of my life suffer when I am losing control of myself. I want to kill myself to free her from the pain. I know she will hurt from this, but I am putting her through this suffering every day. I don’t have many friends left and I have no one else to turn to. My own family turns their back on me because they don’t want the negativity and I can’t be completely honest with my girlfriend on my feelings.