“I love him of course I wanna spend the rest of my life with him” “I feel nothing I don’t know why because I felt everything 2 weeks ago” “I’m okay it’s ocd” “What if it isn’t ocd and it’s the truth” “I love him, wait I feel like I’m lying to myself” “I’m in denial the love is gone” I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL AGAIN.💔
The fact that you are so worried about the state of your relationship shows that you care a lot about him. OCD wants to latch on to these type of things. It will take time. I’m going through something very similar. It can really painful and feel really hopeless. You just have to believe things will get better.
I feel so bad. He deserves someone who is sure. He doesn’t deserve someone mentally ill like me. I’m ashamed.. I wish I could control how I feel. I wish I could feel like I’m not lying to myself. I’m so sad.
@____Anonymous_____ I feel this!
How can I bring back those feelings of love
We were fine we went on a 2 day trip to meet his family then came back and now I feel like a different person and I feel different in general. I hate it.
This is me 24/7 it's crippling and awful. You're not alone.
i have this same problem, and sometimes it even feels like my feelings for him completely disappear for a moment if he seems slightly off, like im emotionally distancing myself from him and going into fight or flight mode just bc im scared that me feeling like hes slightly off means hes gonna leave me. it sucks 🥹
Yes me too
@Anonymous Feels wrong feeling and all negative
hey there, i totally hear you and it sounds super tough what you're going through. it's okay to have these conflicting feelings, and it's really brave of you to reach out. 💪 i came across "unstuck: ocd therapy tools" right here on the forum, and it's been a game-changer for me in the past month. maybe give it a shot, it could offer some support and strategies that help you too. hang in there, you're not alone in this. 🌟
I was doing ok yall until I smoked some weed yesterday and I was in full panic😭😭😭 I thought I was ok to hit the pen obviously not
Thank you all!
I don’t think I have ROCD anymore.. I believe I have fallen out of love with my partner… 💔 I still do compulsions and try to test myself but it doesn’t work anymore. I think about my happy moments and cry bc I want that to be the true me… I am just at this point convinced I don’t love him the same way anymore.. that ROCD just tricked me… I don’t feel numb but I am unhappy.. I cry randomly but not as much. I just… believe in am with him to avoid hurting him.. I’m just worried I don’t wanna admit it.. 😞 Can ROCD do this? Or can a relationship be saved even if I fell out of love!? I just know I am mentally exhausted. I even wanted to say I love you to him but didn’t bc of how bad this is… felt that I had no right…
I just want to love him!!! It’s not fair!! Everytime I talk to him I wanna break up… I can’t tell if ROCD is there anymore… please… I want this urge to go away!!! 😭 What if breaking up is the only way… to know. I don’t wanna break up with him. Did anyone on here 100% believed they lost feelings bc of obsessing? 😢💔
rocd is ruining me and my life and my relationship. i feel so disconnected from my boyfriend bc of it and it’s so frustrating but i also feel so numb that i can’t even feel frustrated or upset or anxious or anything bad when the bad thoughts come bc it’s been so excessive over the past couple of months. i don’t feel anything like i use to and i just wish i could love him peacefully and purely the way i use to with no worry or doubt. i feel like he deserves better bc my mind is constantly telling me i want someone else secretly or makes over analyze anything and everything with him or about him and creates so much doubt in my mind. it feels so real to the point that i feel like i’m betraying him and even though i’m not actually DOING anything to him or behind his back or anything it feels like i would be lying and deceiving him to continue being a good girlfriend and just being good to him if that makes sense. like when i’m actually with him or talking to him it’s mostly good im not thinking badly too much but as soon as he’s gone it all comes and it feels like i’m hiding a different, bad, personality from him when he’s not around. he’s such a good person and i’ve done everything to be so good to him bc i want to and he deserves it all. but inside i feel like don’t know myself at all anymore. i want to get past it but i feel like even if i do i’ll feel like i’m hiding a past betrayal from him. i don’t want to lose him. can anyone help with any of this or share ways they’ve gotten past this.
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