the past week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life i tried to kms a couple times and i just cut myself really bad but what caused this all is my mind saying ive done something wrong even though i haven’t. I’ve asked many people they said i haven’t done anything wrong i even asked my parents and i know the answer but my body can’t seem to accept it. There’s genuinely something so wrong with me and i’m so tired of living.
Please call a crisis hotline! I don't want you to go through all of this pain. I'm sorry you're having such a horrible time. OCD is not worth you hurting yourself. Please start therapy here if you can. If not, there are options through the IOCDF for affordable therapy. Here is the link: https://iocdf.org/low-cost-treatment-options-for-ocd/#:~:text=Often%20seen%20as%20a%20%E2%80%9Cpay%20as%20you,full%20cost%20of%20sessions%20is%20too%20high. If you are feeling like hurting yourself, please text or call a crisis hotline. Here are some options: Text line(free): https://www.crisistextline.org/about-us/faq/#faq1 Suicide Prevention Hotline (dial 988): https://www.texastribune.org/2022/07/15/988-suicide-prevention-hotline/#:~:text=The%20hotline%20is%20staffed%2024,%2D800%2D273%2D8255. Please reach out to the member advocates here as well.
Hey, you are amongst friends here. Please remember that you are NEVER alone and you are ALWAYS supported. And I don't want to see you suffer. I know it gets really really hard but it WILL get easier, you just need to some next steps to get there. That's all. And you've got a whole community here who can relate. I'm sure many of us haven't felt the pain you feel, but maybe you can find solace in knowing that some have and they've made it through. You are making it through. ♥️ And you will make it through. ♥️ There is also this great YouTube channel called OCD & Anxiety by Nathan Peterson: https://youtube.com/@ocdandanxiety?si=Om42125AvxNLgK68 Check him out tonight ♥️
I’m so sorry 😢 there’s nothing wrong with you; you deserve peace and happiness and nothing can take that away from you. So many of us are suffering and understand how suffocating this disorder is, so you aren’t alone ❤️. You have this community you can reach out to for support and encouragement whenever you need it. Reach out to people you trust in your life as well, and also check out the resources mentioned in the comments above. It will be very difficult right now but you absolutely can get through this. This isn’t the end - it’s just one chapter in your journey that won’t last forever. I believe in you; you’re so strong and courageous ❤️
My life has been hell, and I don’t know how to move on. I (15M) did awful things when I started high school, thinking being sexual was the way to connect. I crossed boundaries, overshared, and kept flirting with friends and making sexual jokes, even after they said no (all over text). One friend stopped talking to me and can’t even look at me now. I feel like a monster. Why shouldn’t I be locked up? If I got therapy, I feel like I’d be sent jail. How can I ever move on?Then there were these 2 guys who were older than me one was 16 one was 17. The 16 yr old was introduced to me by my online friend who is my best friend and I begged the 16 yr old for pics (idk how it started but after my friends ex randomly messaged me and sent me pictures and then blocked me right after I think I became addicted to chasing that high) the 16 yr old eventually sent me a pic but it was real and I stopped bugging him on it after that but i feel so bad I did that but my friend tells me not to feel bad cause the guy was weird but I still feel bad. Then the 17 yr old I did the same thing with him but went too far when I tried getting pics from him by using my best friends ass pics she sent me (she was 15) I don’t think I grasped how wrong this was but that’s not an excuse she eventually found it when I told her after she tried getting pics from the guy herself to try and help me and the guy got mad when she stopped talking to him cause we found it weird talking to him. I told her about how I sent the pics she said she felt sick but forgave me cause she thought I was gonna harm myself. Fast forward the guy told me after I had still been flirting with him that I s@d him (we never met in person ever) and I felt so guilty and apologized a lot and he got annoyed and told me that he had been kinda manipulative to me and kept me in a loop of mystery and I don’t talk to him anymore. But one of my other friends stopped talking to me after I was being by too emotionally taxing on him because I became very depressed and didn’t wanna life anymore and tried to stop lifing a few times. And now idk if I actually s@d someone if I did that to someone and now I think I’m a pdo and I think I s@d my baby cousins and my little brother and now I’m scared bf I can’t even get help because my parents don’t believe in therapy and even if I wanted to I’m scared because I don’t want to go to jail but I think I deserve it honestly why should a monster like me live.
I struggle with self harm and depression. I told my doctor a week ago that I have suicidal thoughts and she put me on an anxiety/depression med and she said it could make things better or worse. I have noticed I barely eat anything anymore and I started to self harm more. I go through my day struggling and I’ve lost my friends and I stay in my room 24/7. I don’t feel like doing anything anymore. People say “oh it’ll get better” or “you’ll overcome it” or “don’t worry it’ll be okay” but guess what it’s not true. I feel like no one gets me or no one will listen to me. No one understands the pain I go through every second of the day trying my hardest to put on a fake smile. I can’t do it anymore. I want it to stop.
So I and my mom got into this big fight yesterday and I said some things I didn't mean to say to her and she said some things and I know what I said was bad but what she said cut deep in me because Even though what I said to her wasn't good her words hurt because going through wat om going through rn is honestly the worst thing a human can go through my worries and fears now all of a sudden now become feeling of Suicide and self-harm and honestly she's right because at this point I'm at a dead end and there's no going back I didn't tell her what was actually going on with me because I know she will never look at me the same and growing up with parents that are Gen x back in the day mental illness is a fucking joke to them apparently and is not taken seriously not all of them are like this but I know a few now I've been thinking about offing myself I don't think I'm gonna make it I'm really struggling.
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