Existential OCD please help

I know it feels very strange. Like an out of body experience, but i promise that eventually your mind and body will come back to balance. You’re not gonna wanna hear this but you have to sit with the thoughts and let them play out. It sucks right now , but it’ll phase out just like OCD always does. You do have a purpose in life as that’s to be alive and create wonderful memories , make friends, build relationships and do things you love to do.

Hi, I had Existential OCD back last year and it was the reason I decided to go onto medication. I used to read quite a lot of Reddit posts about OCD and a theme kept coming up - Existential OCD. Everyone would say it was the worst theme they ever had and at the time I didn’t know what it was. I stupidly googled it and it started the spiral that I suffered afterwards. Mine was around the universe and the vastness of it. Things like this used to interest me a little but it wasn’t until I really was suffering that I found it terrifying. I was experiencing DPDR. I don’t know what it was at the time but I went and had a couple of sessions with a councillor friend of mine who explained that DPDR is a normal thing to experience when going through a huge amount of stress, a way the brain protects you. This is how I understood how it works - you have a glass of water and you keep topping it up (Anxiety). The glass gets fuller until it starts overflowing (DPDR experienced). I found by reducing my anxiety level the DPDR would subside and if the glass started to overflow again it would come back. I spoke to my doctor at the time and I was prescribed Sertraline which worked wonders for the anxiety I was experiencing. I found NOCD and a few others on TikTok/Youtube about Existential OCD and I no longer felt alone in what I was going through. Over the coming months my Existential thoughts reduced only to be replaced with another distressing theme but hay, that’s OCD for you! Are you able to see a doctor and explain what you are going through? There was an interesting website I found which explained how DPDR works which maybe of interest. It was DP Manual. I hope this helps a little and remember existential thoughts are common and a lot of people experience them at some point in their lives, it’s only natural to wonder such questions.

I’m dealing with the same thing. Been stuck in DPDR for over a year and a half and feel there’s now way out of it. I had panic attacks and my life has never been the same - the attacks were over fear of physical sensations. Now I don’t even get physical anxiety, I’m just numb to everything and my life doesn’t even feel real