I was on the nocd live the other night and they told me that if you enjoy/like your intrusive thoughts then it isn’t ocd. i thought you could feel anything to an intrusive thought and it does not have to mean anything?
I have no idea - but the gist I get is that there is a difference between panicking that you ‘think’ you ‘feel’ like you enjoy the intrusive thought vs you genuinely enjoy it. Like, when I have a thought around SOOCD of ‘you know you like it and you are just in denial’ … I’m not actually enjoying that thought or feeling. I feel like I want to throw up, panicked, like I am being forced against my will. The issue is, when I am in the real bad throws of anxiety, it feels like the worse case scenario WILL or IS happening. That’s just my two cents. Would love to hear more educated people’s thoughts tho
@gp Sorry one last thing more related to SOOCD. Before my original thought, I would go to bed most nights thinking about being sexual with women. It was like I was drawn to do that and I loved looking forward to it. I would describe that feeling VERY differently to how I feel when my brain says “you would enjoy kissing a man” Again … I’m not a psych.
@gp that’s true it’s just hard because i have had this ocd theme so long sometimes i literally don’t want to fight it and am just like yep i like it, but my distress comes in when i think it means anything
@ocdhelplol I’ve been suffering with mine for near enough 8-9 years. I hear you.
@gp i’m sorry! do you ever just genuinely feel like you like it or want it? because i feel that way sometimes & i’ll literally get thoughts as a girl sometimes like “why do girls like men or find them attractive” and that makes it feel more real or seem real
@gp And if I listen to my psych and the many people I have asked forms of reassurance from - the reason I’m still stuck and thinking I also don’t want to fight anymore is because I keep giving in to the anxiety and the realness of this horrible disorder. I’ve not yet been able to fully practice and commit response prevention and always ALWAYS get sucked into compulsions (rumination, fighting, googling, reassurance, checking emotions, assuming the worse). The day I finally become strong enough to string days of response prevention back to back is probably the day I start to win. I hate it.
@ocdhelplol I’m a guy and never had a thought (or had to even think about wether I liked guys or girls) before my first thought at 26 years of age. And it came after months of obsessing over a thought that I suddenly ‘felt nothing’ for my then gf. Since then I have had heaps of thoughts and feelings like it’s real or I want it. What I think is happening is that because of the anxiety associated with a thought like ‘omg what if I want this’ it moulds into ‘I feel like I want it’ But honestly. I just have to commit to treatment
@gp mine was similar but mine hit me literally when i was 13/14 so it feels more real but before it hit like no doubt whatsoever
@ocdhelplol Yeah I do hear lots of people start feeling the impacts of ocd at a fairly young age. With a theme like SO, being younger probably adds another piece of ‘evidence’ to thoughts. I dunno. It’s such a horrible disorder that makes you doubt and believe everything is wrong. The best way I describe it to my psych is it’s like being forced to be something/someone you don’t want to be and never have been.
@gp My only advice … seek professional help. They see this stuff and know what thought patterns to look for and then best ways around it or through it. I’ve been to 4 psychs in my time. 3 of them told me it was ocd and all would have told me if I was just in denial. I think the experts know and have the experience? Who knows mate
@ocdhelplol - Heyy! Just wanted to let you know that I have these thoughts too! And asked myself the exact same thing! And mine ( if it is ocd) started also at around 14! (I have memories from before but it officially started at 14)! Sometimes I even feel that if I ever break up with my bf I’ll never be with men again… soo triggering and scary
Help! My OCD has caught onto this thought for awhile and I keep spinning on it. I know you are supposed to follow your values and what your actions suggest with OCD, but what if that is even blurry right know? For example my whole life I wanted to be with a man, and now my OCD is having major intrusive thoughts about women. How do you tell if those thoughts are wanted or not? I can’t figure out if I like the thoughts or not. I’m trying to live the life “I want” but what if I don’t know what that is?
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
more advice for sexual/pocd sufferers I read somewhere that if you hyperfocus too much on your body's reactions to intrusive thoughts, you're unwillingly just making it intensify the sensations. Your body, after enduring severe anxiety and stress from sexual obsessions, will now just react to anything sexual that comes into your mind, whether forced or randomly. It can happen in any way. OCD makes anything possible, and is driven by fear. Knowing this I realized, it doesnt matter at this point, and to let it happen. And you guys should too. Remember what your real values and desires are. It can feel as real as it gets, but it is still not you.
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