Ugh when you dont have anxious thoughts anymore and when you just feel gay because you dont care anymore and you actually forgot what you fight for because you completely lost urself. Ugh im gonna get real honest with everyone now. I saw naked woman in a show and i got turned on again. Its weird that when inwas younger and thst happened i could just live with it. I always was like aight okay but inwould never wnat to do something with her in real life. And i knew i liked men and men only bc ive never seen a girl in another way. Anyway now with hocd exploded i cant handle that i get turned on by naked woman in porn or tv series. The fact that my attraction towards men is gone makes it 10000x times harder to believe that its normal for woman to be turned on by woman without having romantic jnterest in them and it makes me believe im just gay. Rverything was 10000 times easier when i was attracted to men. Thst cleared everything up bc my love for men was soo strong that being lesbian wasnt even a thought in my head because inwas too busy with guys. Now without it i cant be convinced thst the real me is straight. Even tho im super unhappy like this and i got depressed bc of the loss and cravings for men atraction i still cant believe that i can be straigjt while being turned on by woman on screens. I dont like woman in real life at A l l

True because this only helps me for a short period of Time i know my hocd wont be gone because it made me think i like girls romantically. For me theres the problem really because i never liked girls but now my mind says i do u know. I def still have to work on that

Wow that was an amazing video...it just added a ton more confusion in my mind..but it was great.. If u can’t trust your arousal...u can only trust your mind? But HOCD recovery tells us not to trust our minds smh lol

You’re welcome! I’m glad it helped you too! You can post it if you want. I already did a few times ?

Damm, i tell you what i like not my genitals. That cleared up sooo much. If only i knew this before hocd. I feel like hocd made me like girls so that there is no way back now.

https://youtu.be/L-q-tSHo9Ho maybe this will explain your feelings.. it helped me a lot. If you overthink like you’re doing now i think it’s normal you don’t feel like you normally would.

I feel u I am so used to my thoughts that they dont even freak me out as much and the n I get scared that I am lesbian or bi... but I try to not let my mind go there because than it's just a bad cycle cant even hang out with my friends...

There is a way, not back but forward.. now in the future you can think about this explanation instead of that you are gay.. it helped me a lot.. but don’t think it will be over instantly.. ocd will try to convince you anyway like, ‘with me it’s different’ blabla.. it will take some time