Pet Obsessions

Let me preface this by saying all three of my cats are alive, well, and healthy. Does anyone else get really distressed by their pets’ mortality? Like I cannot escape thoughts about their health, wondering if they’re happy, if I’m a good caregiver, worrying about when they’ll pass and how hard that will be and that I’ll inevitably feel like I’ve failed them. I feel intensely guilty often for things like leaving for work or not allowing them in the bedroom when I sleep (bc they keep me up) even though logically I know I shouldn’t feel bad. And I have a lot of guilt about not being able to take a past cat while leaving an abusive situation three years ago (she is definitely okay, she’s well cared for, I checked with an old mutual friend). I just love them so much, I want them to be okay.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y ago

I feel bad for a dog I had to pass on a long time ago now. I’d had her for years and we were always side by side. I started becoming very ill and I was worried I’d neglect her. I know we had the most amazing time together though and I took amazingly good care of her. Her name was Cassie.

Litulylucas

Date posted: 1y ago

I get such horrible anxiety about my dog. Especially when im away from her. I remember when i was younger it was my responsibility to put her in her crate so she wouldnt tear up everything while i was away at school. But everytime i was about to leave id have horrible thoughts about her being stuck and not able to get out jf something happened and id let her out and pretend that she did it herself. Even now, i have trouble going places because i dont know how well she understands where im going. Ive been gone for a couple weeks and i cant stop thinking about how she feels. Shes my best friend and while i know that shes cared for and loved theres a lot i cant control and its still scary.

Litulylucas

Date posted: 1y ago

I really hope you find peace and know that some things are just out of your control. Something that helps me is “magic”. Since i was little id put my forehead on my dogs and think and try to transfer it into her head. It at least is a nice bonding moment and always gets a little reaction.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Litulylucas Awh I love that 🥺

britt.2

Date posted: 27w ago

This is my current OCD theme and I’m really struggling with it. Thinking of you, hoping you found peace.

Nameless000

Date posted: 10w ago

accidentally hit my cat, then compulsively again..

my cat was smelling my other cat's bottom so to get him away i like quick "slapped" with the dorsal of the hand on his face and i got afraid that i did too hard so i compulsively did it again with similar strenght that i used to check if he was hurt and i regret it, like it wasn't a hard slap meant to hurt, but i did that impulsively and maybe i exceeded a bit over the limit in which it doesn't hurt. like he definetely reacted but i don't know if he was hurt, like he reacted in the moment but nothiny else, and he's lovey dovey. i dont think he was hurt but i feel bad. because if i did it once as a mistake i shouldn't have done the same thing again. i feel like an abuser. there are many things that are happening to me and im getting overwhelmed and i dont know how much longer i can hold on. because one thing i can't do is to forgive myself over mistakes.

ghostballZ420

Date posted: 8w ago

So so guilty

I don’t know why but today I feel so incredibly angry right now and I was so frustrated with everything including my two dogs. I didn’t hurt them or hit them or anything but I was particularly annoyed and angry when they were trying to get presumably a bunny or a raccoon from underneath the shed, so I had to pull my small dog away when he wouldn’t budge away from the shed and i couldn’t pick him up because I was not close enough. I feel bad because I know I love my dogs but oh my god I just get so annoyed with them and on top of them everything else I have to just shut down all day and the things I don’t understand. I feel like I’m going insane. I don’t want my dogs to think I don’t love them because i was angry and annoyed at them. I know they’re just animals and they love me and I love them. I want them to know I’m sorry for even getting mad. I wish I didn’t feel so angry and yet so disconnected at the same time. I’m terrified I’m an evil person or that I don’t love my pets or something. I started to hit myself and punch myself because I do that when I get over the edge angry. I don’t know why I feel angry. It’s a mix of anger and emptiness and I don’t want either of them especially towards my dogs.

Tireddd

Date posted: 7w ago

I feel very bad about my history with animals

TW warning: ZOCD, real events, and animal neglect. I feel like if I'm nice to animals or think about having a pet in the future I'm being a hypocrite, one of the things i saw at 10-12 years old because of my porn addiction and exposure were horrible videos involving animals, and i had a kitten at 9 years old, i didn't know the responsibility of having a pet, yet i loved my cat very much and when we couldn't take it to the vet because we didn't have money, it came back with wounds, bleeding, i cried a lot and i regretted so much having been so inconsiderate and dumb to ask for a cat when we didn't have money or the appropiate place to keep it safe. My parents refused to take him to the vet or a shelter, and one day it ran away from home and never came back. I feel like i'll never be able to interact normally or have a pet without being a hypocrite. I'm horrible

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