Does anybody else start to remember a conversation differently than how it happened? Like suddenly you start questioning whether or not you said something bad/offensive even though you know you wouldn’t but it feels so REAL :/
Absolutely, it’s just so difficult, like for me personally it’s remembering events and people, thinking did this really happen or did I just make it up now, like to be honest it’s an endless cycle because there is no hard and fast rule to know the real truth either, and as usual “thinking” we might get some relief we follow compulsions which further worsens it. As everything in OCD, logically knowing something really won’t help much as OCD can’t be countered with just logics, as it operates largely on an emotional level! I know it’s really really difficult, even I currently face it, but gradually making us understand that our real memory and our “instincts” are way more reliable than OCD that works by presenting “irrational” facts that distort us from all corners, moreover it have no roots in the actual reality too even if we don’t feel that way. I for sure know it might not help much now, since OCD obviously hates uncertainty and it would take a lot of time to get a perspective. But with time surely progress adds up!! :)
@UH52 You’re definitely right, our real memory is way more reliable than OCD. This really helped, thank you so much for sharing!!
Is anyone’s OCD just a 1,000 times worse in the night? To where you’ve convinced yourself (especially if you wake up between 3-5 am)that you’re completely a different person than who you want to be? Sometimes I’m scared it’s like psychosis or something because of how intense the thoughts and feelings are.. Has anyone else felt this way? Is this a symptom of medication wearing off in the night??
TRIGGER WARNING My friend basically said to me that someone who’s drunk could easily do something out of character and harm someone else?! That majorly triggered me as my ocd false memory involves me being drunk, so now I feel like it’s really possible. I’m not an angry drunk by any means but still. Ugh why do people have to say things to me. I feel so ashamed for getting drunk.
Earlier today for about a few hours i spent the whole entire time in my room researching a certain topic and feeling 100% convinced it was true and that it was the real me and i never had ocd. There was convincing evidence too. I was freaking out, crying, etc. i hardly remember what i was thinking, its almost like i blacked out. I keep trying to remember because from what i do remember some of the thoughts kinda bother me. I ended up calming down and snapping back into what i think is reality, and felt completely opposite of what i was thinking just 5 minutes prior. Im so confused, i dont know who i am, i feel like im actually going crazy.
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