I cant take this anymore. My mind is flooded with memories where i felt some sort of panic or attraction when i saw a pretty woman. Yesterday i saw a video of someone saying the collab between shakira and rihanna was their gay awakening and i remember so vividly when i was young that i was obsessed with the video. I just dont wanna live a life where i’m attracted to women but i feel like i am. I just want everything to end
I’m here to talk if u need it, I have this theme too
I dont even know if its ocd bc im not diagnosed im just scared its internalized homophobia or comphet.
@Thaliaa What’s comport
@Anonymous Oh dont look it up it might trigger u and idk if i wanna tell u bc i also dont want to trigger u
Hello! Sorry you are going through a tough time. I understand that feeling of panic, you just have to weather the storm. Try keeping it low key and do something you enjoy to bring down the panic. Now as for your theme. Just remember your brain sends you random thoughts through out your life that have no rhyme or reason. These thoughts that we don’t resonate with is called intrusive thoughts. It’s okay to find a women attracted. You acknowledging that they are good looking doesn’t mean you’re gay. As for Shakira and Rihanna from all I know is they are straight people. I am unsure of the theory that it’s their gay awakening that’s news to me!
@J1000 It was the gay awakening of the person in the tiktok not theirs😂 and thank you so much for the advice i really appreciate it. I really like to share my thoughts on here bc it feels nice to have ppl relate or help
@Thaliaa What one person gets out of it doesn’t mean you have to as well! With art there is 100 off different interpretations. Also I agree it’s good to share and get help. Just make sure it isn’t a compulsion
hey, i really feel for you. it sounds like you're going through a lot right now, especially with those memories and feelings causing you distress. it’s tough, but you’re not alone in this. 💔 have you heard about "unstuck"? it's an ai-powered therapy tool specifically for ocd (check it out at unstuckmyOCD.com). it's been a game-changer for me this past month and could offer you some relief too. someone here recommended it to me, and i honestly wish i had found it sooner.
I can’t anymore. I really can’t. The what if I am attracted to them. The “why does it have to be a man with a woman” (which by the way- I only now get when women are talking in love songs. And whenever I look at any couple). I am just tired. Tired of feelings like crap. I just want to go to what I was before, but was I like this before? Have I always been like this? I am tired. My anxiety levels are ALWAYS the worse at the morning. I am starting to obsess whether I like this friend now! And it doesn’t matter how much I try to accept it, it doesn’t go away. Like there is still something wrong. I hate this. I hate this so fucking much. At this point. How can I still be straight? I literally get triggered by everything. And how can I just not be gay? I have no reason to think that but it feels so real. It’s like I have no sexuality at all. And this is all that I can think about every single hour of my day. I am even thinking about this in dreams! I even wonder that the fact I am so upset right now is because I am scared of telling people and that they won’t accept me. When I don’t even know who I am myself. I am so done. What even is this? Have I always been like this? I am getting flashbacks and it’s telling me I have.
I'm literally just exhausted, I just to cry and rip my brain apart. I either get sexual images or gay ones or weird ones. I'm literally worn out, I don't see the point in keep doing this if I have to stay like this. I would rather die or lock myself alone for the rest of my life than being with someone of the same sex. I truly feel like I'm gonna do or say something screwed up. I just want this to stop please
I’m having a panic attack right now. I’m talking to a cute boy and my mind is telling me I’m not attracted to him and I’m attracted to girls. I want to be with a guy. But what if I’m into girls and I have internal homophobia. I don’t want to be gay because it’s not something I believe in. I feel the need to come out. I want to be into men like I was. I hate this living like this is such a waste. I literally don’t want to be here. I’m at work and I’m freaking out
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