SOOCD and feelings

I woke up today with 0 feelings for my bf. It just feels at that point that im pushing down feelings I have for girls and I am just in complete denial. I just want to cry. Then, I ask myself : " would a lesbian want to touch/kiss/cuddle with a bf like I do"? but then I answer " what if its just a reflex and you're just used to it at that point and that is why you're touchy with your bf". Any thoughts on this? I am really struggeling this week. (I am 26 btw)

Sexual Orientation OCD

PurpleWings380

Date posted: 1y

I just wanted to come in to say that I understand this. I actually do like both men and women but I would start overanalyzing if I actually preferred women when I was with a man or preferred men when I was with a woman. I’m in my late 20s and for myself personally I know I am with the right PERSON for me. But I have struggled with sexual intimacy which has led me to intrusive thoughts in this area. I am no expert so please take my thoughts at face value- I think that with how much our brain goes through in a day, and the need for reassurance, we start questioning ourselves and our own motives and desires in relationships to avoid telling our partner what is needed. I also think it is 100% okay that sometimes you have 0 feelings- and that is indicative of OCD. I’ve struggled with feeling no sexual attraction to my boyfriend and then realized the lack of attraction is to sex- not to him specifically. But I also think your sexual orientation thoughts might be worth exploring with the help of a therapist so that you have help moderating all the thoughts coming at you at the same time. It’s a full-time job living with OCD. ❤️

PurpleWings380

Date posted: 1y

@Ilovemyhusband0322 No. I’m not sure what I wrote that gave you this impression. I encourage discussions about sexual orientation with a therapist because it can help understand if someone has been suppressing their sexual orientation or if it is a product of OCD intrusive thoughts. I also am mildly offended that you would think experimenting with one’s sexuality is dangerous… I respect if you are not open to LGBTQIA+ but do not agree with an assertion that it is dangerous to be with a same-sex partner. Again- I was not encouraging any actions other than seeking open dialogue with a trusted counselor.

Anonymousesti

Date posted: 20w

SOOCD

Just tired af... Anyone else feels like everything is a lie all the time and there is no "before the OCD I was boy crazy" just the OCD since forever... or denial because of that aspect? Really struggeling with the physical aspect of SOOCD : looking at a women's body and really feeling something and getting turned on and looking at a man's and not feeling anything... I just dont understand! I asked my friends and many of them said they dont feel anything looking at a man's body as well (they're straight) but also looking at a women's doesnt feel like much. I just dont understand ughhhh

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymousesti

Date posted: 19w

Soocd while in a relationship

Is anyone here going throughbSOOCD while being in a relationship? If yes, do you feel like “something is missing” even tho everything is great? My OCD keeps on telling me “you’re settling” or “yeah you’re happy with what you have but its nothing compared to what you would be feeling if you were with a girl, but you’re with your bf for society!” Im soo tired!! When I look at him I find him so attractive and handsome but i dont know if im attracted to him or if he’s just attractive!! And while growing up I was never “pulled by guys” but I thought that everyone was this way! I also used to look at girls because I found them Beautiful but I thought that everyone used to look at them this way! I think what truly bothering me is “comphet” and the “lesbian masterdoc”. Like I feel like I can relate to some points! Yes I used to choosw my crushes growing up but it felt like everyone used to do the same thing! As for my current bf, we started out as friend and then it turned into something else but now im scared I just agreed to being his gf because “that’s what I had to do” and im scared that he’s my “beard”. I particularly got triggered yesterday because my friends were talking about their celebrities crush and I couldnt think about anyone without forcing it! Instead I could easily think about kristen stewart or someone with the same vibe. All of this + my feelings must mean something no??? I just want to feel “in love” my bf is perfect!

Sexual Orientation OCD

Mags2002

Date posted: 16w

Soocd: need some response , is this even ocd?

I really dont know if it is ocd anymore I dont want certain sexual things with my bf anymore that i used to like When i envision it with a girl it is so easy to envision and it feels like i want that , that will give me the satisfaction This feeling is making me really question if i am still into men , desire men sexually Is this still ocd , i really dont know anymore , as it is a feeling it is too real

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

SOOCD and feelings

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community