I just can’t

You don't have to, the treatmen for OCD it's not to accept being gay, or any other sexuality you might be thinking of, I have "came out" like 3 times and it never stopped the thoughs, the treatmen it's to try and not to engage in compulsions, such as reassurance, or confesion, or rumination, just accept that you had that though/feeling/sensation,etc, and it's just that, it doesn't have to mean anything

I’m struggling with the same thing too, but I remember reading something awhile back that said, “we do not obsess over things that are pleasant.” For example, we would not obsess over winning the lottery. This has been helping me a lot and recognizing that this is OCD.