keeps saying i’m going to do it today

i feel like crying. i keep coming back here but it’s the only place that calms me down. i keep getting thoughts and feelings that i’m going to give into these thoughts today. all i get is images of me harming my family members and i’m panicking so bad. i don’t want to hurt them, and now it’s saying that i actually do want to. it feels inevitable. i feel like a terrible person. i know i don’t want to do these terrible things. i was just fine a few minutes ago but it all just came back like always.

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Username: reeseyrayreeseyray

Date posted: 42w ago

i’m struggling with thoughts like these too, i’ve been very irritable lately with my mom and i keep thinking what if the irritation gets the best of me and i do something, it’s terrible and grueling to constantly be focusing on these thoughts but that’s all they are, thoughts. someone with genuine intention to harm someone wouldn’t be going through all these mind hoops worrying about doing it they just would. im not currently in therapy as im not diagnosed but i def recommend speaking to an ocd therapist abt this if you’re able to and just know you aren’t alone with these thoughts, feelings, or urges! sending you much love!! :D

Username: CgreenoosCgreenoos

Date posted: 42w ago

Anyone and everyone dealing with OCD in general my heart goes out to you I have daily struggles of keeping myself in the right state of mind day in and day out is grueling and it sucks when one thing improves and then all the sudden another theme hits 10x harder its honestly so debilitating and discouraging but when I come here I realize I'm not alone and I have support and people who are going through the same struggle of balancing OCD and living ❤️ I greatly appreciate everyone here for being so open

Username: OCDCANKICKROCKSOCDCANKICKROCKS

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 42w ago

I definitely understand the feeling because I to have harm OCD. Some days can be tougher than others. But always remember you are the opposite of what OCD tells you. When you have the thoughts, sit with them and breath through them. Tell yourself “I acknowledge this is OCD and I chose to sit with it”. Continue breathing through them and with time it will get better. OCD attacks the things you love the most, in this case your family.

Username: Ronda Ronda

Date posted: 42w ago

I got the “On edge” feeling this weekend. I thought I was somehow going to lose all control. It was devastating. Im still feeling the impending doom feeling but just not as bad. Like always some days are worse than others. I held it together, you will too!

Username: Kevia SKevia S

Date posted: 42w ago

Hello , I understand what you’re feeling it can be very very hard . But stay strong play some relaxin music to calm you down . Does your thought response to you in your mind ?

Username: burns1burns1

Date posted: 42w ago

I have had these thoughts about my kids and husband that's why I came to no ocd after we lost our son my husband blamed me and triggered my OCD it was so bad I was scared to be left alone with my children for over a year the thought still come like they did but I just sit in it now and remember it isn't me and they will leave if I don't give them to much power over me or allow them to get bigger

Username: leafcr0nicals

Date posted: 1y ago

urges

i am so terrified i might hurt somebody. i have harm ocd, and lately, the things i do to make myself feel better (my compulsions) aren’t helping anymore and i don’t know what to do. i’m scared i have the urge to hurt somebody, specifically my family. i hate being in the same house as them out of fear i might want to one day grab something and kill them. i don’t. i would never dream of it. but i’m so terrified. i keep on posting about the same things, and i’m sorry, i just don’t know what else to do to make myself feel better. i know i’m supposed to sit with uncertainty, but it’s just so hard 🙁

Username: bloominglotus

Date posted: 51w ago

It’s so difficult

Today has been awful thoughts. It’s just getting worse and it feels like real thoughts and feelings even though I’ve been fighting it. I wish I could explain how bad it is to my parents. How do you tell anyone you’re having horrible horrible thoughts of sexually harming others and other terrible things?And there’s events from my past that make me not want to do anything because I feel like I deserve to be jailed. I’m worried I won’t be able to get a job because I can’t act like a normal person, or learn to drive. My mom said I need something to keep my occupied, find some classes to take. And she’s right but I’m worried I can’t even focus on that and again I feel like it’s a waste because I feel like I deserve to be in jail. I’m 21 I feel like such a failure. I don’t know how to get help, I really feel like I don’t want to live anymore, it feel like the only way out. But I don’t want to hurt anyone and I don’t want my family to feel at fault. I don’t have any diagnosis so it just all feels too real. It’s CONSTANT thoughts about harming others. It feels real, it sounds proud and almost like it’s mocking in my head. I feel like I’m voluntarily thinking these things. I don’t understand why this has happened and why it’s gotten so bad. I know in my heart I have ZERO desire to be this person. I’m sorry I keep posting so much, it’s just so difficult.

Username: stargirlll

Date posted: 41w ago

feel like a monster

it feels like i actually want to kill people. i know i don’t but it feels like i do. it’s like when i first got this theme i knew it wasn’t real but now i don’t know anymore. i don’t want to kill people, especially my family. i would never do that ever. but the urges and thoughts feel different now. even my reaction feels different. i feel like morals changed, i feel like a monster. i want to cry so bad.

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