These have been the recent intrusive thoughts I’ve had. They scare me so much because it’s like why am I thinking about this so much if I was truly so so in love with him I wouldn’t doubt it at all right? My OCD was relatively calm/non existent for a period of time but then I entered my relationship with my beloved and I feel like I’m worrying way too much every week about random things.
This sounds like it could be relationship ocd, when I was dating I would get major anxiety about if I actually liked who I was dating and my brain telling me that I don’t actually like them and that I’m waisting their time. Telling me that I I need to break up with them in order for the anxiety to ever go away. Sometimes even if you really like someone your brain will convince you otherwise
Hey I’ve been experiencing this When I’m in a relationship my rocd gets really bad and I’m constantly obsessing over thoughts of whether I’m in the right relationship and if I’m faking it or forcing it and lying to him and myself and whether I truly love him It’s a constant cycle and it’s exhausting and scary and I want it to stop
My relationship OCD has been severe lately and with seemingly no trigger to cause this flare up. I am constantly anxious, doubtful and panicked that I don't love my partner, overanalyzing whether or not I'm attracted to him, and ruminating on the numbness I feel when we are together. Every idea I can come up with to test and check to see if there's that love feeling, that attraction or interest/excitement in doing things together feels invalid, like it won't work. I get triggered further when my partner asks me if I'm okay, and that wave of panic comes back. I can't tell if this is OCD, or if it's my gut telling me it's not a relationship I should stay in. We've been together for five years, I'm not in OCD therapy, and I've been off meds for four months now.
In my past relationship that lasted for years, I so many obsessive thoughts and intrusive thoughts that I listened to like “you don’t really love him. You’re just pretending”. I told him when I would have these thoughts and I could tell that this was not helping our relationship when I would tell him, but the compulsions felt better when I did it. We eventually broke up, and even though he swore it was not because of my ocd, I can’t help but think that I scared him. Flash forward two years and I’ve met this other man. I am worried that my intrusive thoughts about relationship worries will get the best of me and I will end things before they even get good. I think I am more prepared for this time but I’m still worried. I wish I could just stay in the moment and not catastrophic everything.
I have trouble feeling like I even love my partner. Like I see those OCD memes like ‘when I love my partner so much and I’m so in love but then have intrusive thoughts about our relationship’ I’m like … how do you even know you love your partner lol. I feel so identified with my intrusive thoughts I feel like they ARE the relationship, they ARE my feelings, and constantly feel that lack.
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