Ugh I hate pocd I can’t tell anymore :(

Every time I look at a child now I have these feelings and groinials and thoughts that I just can’t tell if they’re real or not bc it feels like it’s real it feels like I’m denying I’m attracted to them or something when I just notice that they are cute and have like attractive faces/feautures? And sometimes it feels like I notice them like an adult :/ but sometimes like if it’s like a vid or something sometimes I think it’s someone older but then I see longer and I’m like oof it’s not 🫠 like ughhh I just hate this idk what to do and I don’t want to be become an abuser I’m scared like I’ll be like my abuser and i don’t feel anxious like before bc I had these thoughts come up since 2020

POCD

Username: MusicfoolMusicfool

Date posted: 35w ago

I can relate and I think that it’s shame from abuse your feeling. The fact that you don’t want to abuse is a good thing. Abuse and ocd can be very confusing! OCD attacks the things we fear the most! Take a lot of courage to post this stuff hang in there. Therapy can help…

Username: berrynikaloverberrynikalover

Date posted: 35w ago

this feels like i wrote it oh my gosh i relate so much

Username: AleksandarAleksandar

Date posted: 35w ago

See what our abusers did to us is impart some aspect of their abuse imparted to them by their answers and so on. But the difference with you is you're going to integrate the abuse you've been dealt in a mature manner because you are responsible and conscious. And that is the first sign of hope. Keep that close to you.

Username: partynextdoorpartynextdoor

Date posted: 35w ago

this thread is beautiful. good advice guys.

Username: xoxox12356

Date posted: 2y ago

it’s so wierd cos when i see a good looking child my pocd tells me i’m attracted to them bur it’s like a feeling and i feel really anxious and i try to convince myself i don’t find them attractive, but like i feel sick at the thought of like ever wanting to d anything sexual/ or be with them or anything, i just think there nice looking ir whatever, it’s nit even like thoughts anymore it’s more like false attraction/ intrusive feelings. please tell me someone else relates as i’ve been reading articles about p3dos and stuff as i thoight it would help me and it’s just triggerd me more and i cant even enjoy anything anymore as it’s all i can think about, i don’t ever want to be a p and it’s honestly the worst thing ever when will it all stop??

Username: jordyng09

Date posted: 1y ago

Pocd attractions😓

Hey everyone! I struggle with POCD and struggle severely with feelings and attractions towards children. It freaks me out and I get so worried and anxious about it. I just keep thinking it’s not normal to get innapropriate attractions towards children. And it’s not just thinking a child is cute because that’s normal but it’s like I get actual attractions or feelings towards kids and it’s the same kind of attractions and feelings I get towards people my age and I’m 19. I’m so scared and worried and I don’t know what to do!! I’m freaking out

Username: co653

Date posted: 29w ago

pocd help

there’s a little kid outside my window at the community pool. i looked to see what he was doing. i looked a couple times and he was just fully clothed in the pool LOL, but then I started having thoughts “oh are u looking bc ur a creep? do u want to go down there and gr0om him???” like wtf!!! and i stayed there and kept looking to i guess test myself and be like see im not looking for any reason but i got this feeling of dread and had to walk away :( i hate this. pocd makes me feel like i am a p everyday it feels so real sometimes I just wanna say I am and admit myself to a mental hospital

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