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- 5y ago
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m like this with a close girl friend of mine. I’m afraid I’ll fall in love with the same sex and she’s the closest same sex friend.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y ago
You have to be okay with having no answer to whether it’s true or not. That’s how you get rid of the fear forever , and also letting yourself be uncomfortable and anxious without constantly resisting against the anxiety. You’ll be good bro , relapses happen sadly and you have to be okay with the possibility of them happening. But the thing is , a relapse can only happen if you perceive your fear as something to be feared. You gotta change that mindset
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- 5y ago
same to me, now it’s like i think about him 24/7, i just want everything to get back to normal
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- 5y ago
It will! I try not to pay attention to it but it’s still always present
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- 5y ago
yes :/
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- 5y ago
I’m kinda going through this with some of my girlfriends. It could be HOCD, or it could also mean that you’re developing feelings (no reassurance here, just accepting uncertainty). But don’t spend time trying to either give yourself reasons why you like him, or why you don’t like him. Like the name popping up in your head hit home. Just say “hey x” or “so what” and keep it pushing (easier said than done). Although it doesn’t feel like it, the truth will reveal itself eventually. Until then, you’ll be okay either way.
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- Date posted
- 25w ago
It's funny but my soocd subtype seems to pop up during fall and winter, and leaves during spring and summer. Currently it has me overanalyzing my friendship with my friend who happens to be gay. It's really frustrating. What makes this even worse is this friend and I are fairly close, (I see them as a parental type figure) and it makes it really awkward especially when they use words like honey or sweetie. They're biologically female, but identify as he/they, which again doesn't help my OCD. They're like 6 years older than me. Idk I'm just freaking out a bit lol.
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- 15w ago
I’ll cut a long story short… SOCD/ HOCD was one of the first themes I got when I was a teenager. The first one was health but I didn’t know that was OCD at the time. Anyway, I have had SOCD for 11 years. Sometimes it leaves me alone and it feels like I’m my own self again! Don’t get me wrong it lingers but I manage. But… IT IS BACK!!! My head is telling me that I am a lesbian and that I need to just admit it. I hate it. I have a boyfriend who I love unconditionally and this has just sprung out of a dream I had -.- I don’t want to be a lesbian! The groinal responses have always been the worst. It started when I was around 16, I woke up one morning and my brain just said ‘you’re a lesbian’, as you can imagine I freaked out, panic attack and cried. Then, my brain starts looking into my childhood… well it’s had a field day. When I was around 9 my friend showed me girls kissing on YouTube and then I suppose I got addicted to it. I then used to play on Habbo and walk up to girls and say ‘kisses’ etc. my brain is now saying that this is evidence that I’m gay. I DONT WANT TO BE A LESBIAN!!! I have no issues with gay people, I just don’t want to be gay myself. Sometimes, when the thoughts come in I don’t seem to get anxious but I get groinals and that freaks me out! I just want peace. I hate this. I get so many different themes. Now it’s this one and I just want to crawl under my duvet, sleep until they’re gone but then I end up dreaming about it!!!
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- 9w ago
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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