I have had issues with my eye. I had conjunctivitis then something the optician diagnoses as a chalazion (a blocked gland I need to put hot compresses on to help drain it). I went there in a panic convinced it was std related even though i have never had one. She said it was definitely not std related but my ocd still says “yeah but what if she’s wrong??? and you infect yourself and your partner? He will leave you” Today’ my eye is itching again and a bit gooey. I’m convinced it’s chlamydia or gonorrhoea again. I made another appointment to see her Wednesday for the 5th time. Do you think this is ocd? I can’t tell

Definitely. Hope this isn’t reassurance. Do you wear makeup? Whenever mascara or eyeliner/shadows go bad, they can give you all this type of infections. Sleeping with makeup on is really bad too. Even the weather can be a factor. I grew up in another city, with a very dry weather, and I always had eye infections. I’ve seen your posts and I know you’re really struggling with this issue, and I know it’s hard for you to not go and get checked by a doctor, but if you already went, trust in them. Try delaying your appointments, like make them for 2 weeks from now, instead of getting the nearest appointment available. Maybe by the time the appointment comes, you won’t be stressing about it anymore. Hope you feel better.

That’s great! Those things can really be a nightmare, but I’m glad you’re feeling better now. That’s the thing with ocd, it makes everything feel so real. Just don’t feed it next time. Like i said, try delaying your appointments or googling stuff. Think about how great and the relief you felt when the doctor told you it wasn’t conjunctivitis, that’s how you’re gonna feel after every battle you win against ocd.

I do wear makeup yes. I normally get it off properly but there has been the odd occasion I haven’t gotten it off before bed. I’m worried because my eyes are sticky and crusty in the morning again now ? it’s really driving me mad I can’t get out of my head that it’s STDs and it’s gonna ruin my relationship

I changed my appointment to today I can’t live another second like it

I’m sorry that you couldn’t wait, but maybe you could start checking expiration dates on your makeup, if you’re from the US, you know fall is coming, and it comes with all kinds of allergies and infections. Go to your appointment, but after that, try to not make another appointment.

Okay she said defo no conjunctivitis, the itchiness and gooey stuff was the chalazion expressing finally so she was actually really happy with it! I have two pockets of fluid that need to drain. The stuff I felt obscuring my eye on the weekend when I blinked was the one pocket draining. I just have to keep doing warm compresses and using eye lubricant. Nothing to worry About and DEFINITELY no conjunctivitis or need to worry ?

Also for my own sanity the redness was due to irritation from the drainage and cleaning and the itching too. My other eye crusting slightly was just because if one eye goes dry the other tends to too because they affect each other. Defo defo no conjunctivitis though so I don’t need to think about that or buy anything for it ?

She said when she looked at it “ooh interesting I can see where it’s drained from!” And checked my other eye which is fine too

Thank you x

Another update for my own records I phoned sexual health helpline again They said there’s no evidence to support that you can spread an std from eye to genitals Conjunctivitis would appear RAPIDLY if it was std related. I’ve tested negative as has my partner of ten months. It would have appeared way before now and also needed treatment she also said that the optician would have definitely identified it too

She also said to stay off google and I can’t let health anxiety dictate my life. She said it’s not an std issue it’s an anxiety/health anxiety issue