From the second I wake up to the second I fall asleep, my mind is spinning with the same thoughts over and over and over again without stopping. It feels like my brain is all over the place and I canāt control it anymore!!
Also be aware of how much this is affecting your life so you can get help. I wish so bad I didn't just try to ignore it and move on, made things worse & eventually everything kinda stopped. It's worth it to get as much help for yourself š«¶ā¤ļø
@RebeccaRuckman For u it worked Iām not living like I used to I donāt even know if I will get married to a man or not
Same
@Anonymous Itās soo bad
Iām awake since 11 pm
@Anonymous Canāt go sleep and I have just. Had 1-2 tablets diazepam and propranolol
@Anonymous Iām tired of this when will we be free u know somtimes I think itās better to die as u will not have to suffer anymore where people Donāt understand parents think that Iām over reacting and thereās nothing Iām actaulking becoming hopeless day by days and I bet u are too. Somtimes I keep getting thoughts with the thought I get a fealing too like a pleasurable fealing and my brain says this is because u like it
I have the same problem and subtype. Medication can help soooo much.
@RebeccaRuckman Iām on meds and they have been helping until this past week!! Maybe itās a sign that theyāre working and Iām accepting the thoughts!?
@Beachgirl2024 Ooo it can be.. which meds are you taking..?
@RebeccaRuckman Right now Iām in the process of switching from Wellbutrin to Lexapro
@Beachgirl2024 Yess but erp is so essential I thought it was kinda optional cuz my Prozac was making me feel better but it's actually to help it die faster because it teaches you not to feed the thoughts.š«¶
@RebeccaRuckman Iām on medication itās been 2 months it hasnāt helped Iām having fluoxetine and propranolol Iām tired now itās hard I have 30 mg of fluoxetine and I used to have 40 mg of propronlol two tablets a day but then I went to the doctors because my blood pressure was dropping to 70/50 and then she changed the dose to 10 mg but I feel like thatās not helping I think I need more medication or a higher dose of fluoxetine maybe 100 mg my ocd is very bad Iām at the verse of killing my self
@Anonymous Ok so I tried Prozac too for nine months went up to 50 mg didn't make any difference just made me feel tired. Turns out I also had bipolar and need a MOOD Stabilizer for my thoughts.š«¶Please don't give up Lovely.. I knew a Lady who had to go through 25 medications until she found one that 100% worked for her.. don't give up.ā¤ļø
@RebeccaRuckman Iām just 18 yet and 25 is a lot of medications
@RebeccaRuckman I donāt have bipolar itās mostly ocd and anxiety but I donāt know false attractions gets to me and I feel I need to kill my head of to stop the thought . When will out brains go back to normal just as others and we will have no false attraction
@Beachgirl2024 Iām taking fluoxetine and thatās not helping itās makes my blood pressure go to. 70 or 89
@Anonymous 80*
@Anonymous Today I was thinking about āwhat if I could switch bodies with somebody elseā so they could take over the stuff I put up with on a daily basis and I could have a normal brain for once š
Any one else deal with this? Like from the moment they wake up to the second they fall asleep, the intrusive thoughts are there?
So my OCD has been bad lately. Iāve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where Iām just so mentally exhausted that I āacceptā what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCDās ātruthā (that Iām attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. Iām starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
I feel like my life isn't my own anymore. I live by OCD's rules. I can't ever switch it off. I spend most of my day mentally reviewing and constantly checking myself. I have to do things in a certain way or i dont feel safe. All this time that i've lost and for what? Idk how I let thoughts have so much power over my life and yet here I am. Every day. I can't even get away from it in sleep because i have dreams about it and I wake up anxious if i manage to get any sleep at all. I'm so over it all.
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