From the second I wake up to the second I fall asleep, my mind is spinning with the same thoughts over and over and over again without stopping. It feels like my brain is all over the place and I canāt control it anymore!!
Also be aware of how much this is affecting your life so you can get help. I wish so bad I didn't just try to ignore it and move on, made things worse & eventually everything kinda stopped. It's worth it to get as much help for yourself š«¶ā¤ļø
@RebeccaRuckman For u it worked Iām not living like I used to I donāt even know if I will get married to a man or not
Same
@Anonymous Itās soo bad
Iām awake since 11 pm
@Anonymous Canāt go sleep and I have just. Had 1-2 tablets diazepam and propranolol
@Anonymous Iām tired of this when will we be free u know somtimes I think itās better to die as u will not have to suffer anymore where people Donāt understand parents think that Iām over reacting and thereās nothing Iām actaulking becoming hopeless day by days and I bet u are too. Somtimes I keep getting thoughts with the thought I get a fealing too like a pleasurable fealing and my brain says this is because u like it
I have the same problem and subtype. Medication can help soooo much.
@RebeccaRuckman Iām on meds and they have been helping until this past week!! Maybe itās a sign that theyāre working and Iām accepting the thoughts!?
@Beachgirl2024 Ooo it can be.. which meds are you taking..?
@RebeccaRuckman Right now Iām in the process of switching from Wellbutrin to Lexapro
@Beachgirl2024 Yess but erp is so essential I thought it was kinda optional cuz my Prozac was making me feel better but it's actually to help it die faster because it teaches you not to feed the thoughts.š«¶
@RebeccaRuckman Iām on medication itās been 2 months it hasnāt helped Iām having fluoxetine and propranolol Iām tired now itās hard I have 30 mg of fluoxetine and I used to have 40 mg of propronlol two tablets a day but then I went to the doctors because my blood pressure was dropping to 70/50 and then she changed the dose to 10 mg but I feel like thatās not helping I think I need more medication or a higher dose of fluoxetine maybe 100 mg my ocd is very bad Iām at the verse of killing my self
@Anonymous Ok so I tried Prozac too for nine months went up to 50 mg didn't make any difference just made me feel tired. Turns out I also had bipolar and need a MOOD Stabilizer for my thoughts.š«¶Please don't give up Lovely.. I knew a Lady who had to go through 25 medications until she found one that 100% worked for her.. don't give up.ā¤ļø
@RebeccaRuckman Iām just 18 yet and 25 is a lot of medications
@RebeccaRuckman I donāt have bipolar itās mostly ocd and anxiety but I donāt know false attractions gets to me and I feel I need to kill my head of to stop the thought . When will out brains go back to normal just as others and we will have no false attraction
@Beachgirl2024 Iām taking fluoxetine and thatās not helping itās makes my blood pressure go to. 70 or 89
@Anonymous 80*
@Anonymous Today I was thinking about āwhat if I could switch bodies with somebody elseā so they could take over the stuff I put up with on a daily basis and I could have a normal brain for once š
My OCD has been terrible the for the past two weeks. I have a fear that I will never be able to get out of the thought loop. I am hyper aware of my thoughts and it disturbs me. I havenāt been able to eat for 10 days. I force myself. I havenāt been able to sleep for more than a couple hours. Then I wake up and ruminate for a couple hours, until Iām exhausted. Iām also afraid Iāll never sleep well again. And Iām afraid Iāll never eat and enjoy my food again. Iām afraid Iāll never be able to stop thinking about this enough to enjoy my family ever again.
from the moment i wake up to the time i fall back asleep, my thoughts will not go a second without thinking about the same few topics. every second of every day for the past year i cannot stop thinking about my boyfriend. and no, not like "la dee da he's so cute!" no. it's the same thoughts of debating my feelings for him, convincing myself that im a lesbian but won't admit it to myself, convincing myself that i don't actually love him i just love the idea of a relationship with him. im disgusted with him but im passing it off as just i dont like that single flaw and thats fine. i can't stop. it's a broken record. my head is just a broken record. and for MULTIPLE YEARS pretty much since my ADHD diagnosis in middle school (i'm graduating this year) i haven't stopped thinking about mental health. relating every single thing in my life to the fact im neurodivergent. asking myself over and over if a thought i had or an action i made means im this personality, i have this mental disorder, because i have this traumatic memory that's influencing my choice. all day, every day, every second, multiple years. these thoughts are just constantly in my head. i want it to stop. i'm so tired of it. so absolutely exhausted. it's not even the compulsions or the anxiety, i just want the thoughts to end. all i could ask for, the thing i would give the world for, is to go a day without obsessively thinking these thoughts. to be able to experience a trigger but not be triggered. to be able to kiss my boyfriend goodbye and have my head move on to another topic for thought completely. to be able to hear a mental health topic be mentioned and not have the urge to explain every aspect of that topic, nor think about it for hours on end. be able to see random people on the street and accidentally make eye contact with them but not have to obsessively think of what their life is like, what they think of me, that they know i'm obsessively thinking about them and they hate me for that. i want to be able to see my ex friend around school whom im upset at the way things ended but not obsessively think about her and be disgusted and scared about those thoughts and her every move. i sound like a freak, i sound like i belong in a straitjacket, i know. i hate it too. so fucking much. i'm freaked out by myself, i know that if i were to share these thoughts at a podium i would be reported on the news and likely arrested because everyone around is terrified and will assume i will ever act. but i just want this to stop. i'm so desperately waiting for my next doctors appointment to ask for an up dose on my lexapro.
Any one else deal with this? Like from the moment they wake up to the second they fall asleep, the intrusive thoughts are there?
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