ERP

It’s hard at first, but it’s not impossible. You’ll get used to it later on. You’ll even learn to like being a better you and so the hope is for you to actively seek exposures on your own. It’s like exercising at the gym.

You are still missing the point though. Feelings aren't facts. Thoughts aren't facts. One thing that helped me a lot was realizing random thoughts aren't important and we don't have to allow them any importance. You have to retrain your brain to recognize these thoughts as just something that pops up in your head that usually don't have any meaning. You assign a feeling or decide on how to react. OCD of course amplifies these feelings but if you don't place much importance on thoughts then they lose their power.

you’ll get through it!

I already know your brain will scream " but, what if these thoughts are true?" Well any scary random thought could be true, but having a thought and and associated feeling doesn't actually mean that thought has any truth or relevance. It may be true or it may be nonsense. For OCD recovery you aren't trying to control your thoughts by making them go away, but instead you are learning to not react to them. Notice the thoughts, then say maybe, maybe not it will happen. Then move on to a task that is important to you.

Hey girl I’m starting ERP and I have the exact same issue I’m just terrified and don’t want it to be true because it’s so disgusting