SOOCD

Hi, i have been on and off with my SOOCD and I have been really good at understanding that my thoughts are just thoughts, yesterday i seen a masculine lesbian and it triggered me and I got severe anxiety because I was expecting some thoughts to come as I had been triggered. I then got thoughts “you find her attractive don’t lie”, when I seen her I do not personally think she is attractive looks wise and all that, but all my mind is saying to me now is I do and I am lying and it’s started to just get to me i just want to shut off and get the thoughts away from me😫then I seen on tiktok this person had SOOCD and then turns out they were gay and I just am spiraling.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Craycray413Craycray413

Date posted: 38w ago

For me, this is what I did when that happens. I know I’m straight. 100%. But when I get those feelings towards women I believe it’s a vibe/energy that is coming off them that your body gets that feeling. You can love someone and want to be around them just from the fact that they make you feel better. They give off that energy that makes you want to be better. And heck, you don’t even have to know the person to feel that. You can get feel good feelings just by being around someone. Through my PTSD journey, there are just some people that having them in the same room brings my whole body back to normal and I’m feeling safe, secure and loved. But that’s all it is and that’s perfectly normal. Human bodies will always crave connection, love and belonging. Sometimes we feel it off of what others are giving out if that makes sense. Hang on and hold tight. You are worthy and you are doing all the things to feel better. You are not alone

Username: NarnianWanderer NarnianWande...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 38w ago

I did this when my SO-OCD and I was locked in racing thoughts and painful rumination 24\7 all throughout the summer of 2022, and then on-and-off last year when my old therapist (talk therapy, unfortunately 😔😒) said something triggering. This is gonna sound crummy, but as a fellow sufferer, sitting in the discomfort and letting the thoughts pass, however brutal, is the key to freedom. We can never truly know whether an OCD thought is our own or not. That comes in time and by focusing on our values, which are consistent and steady. Learning to let the thoughts flow down the river and leaning in to what actually brings us joy in the present moment is how we beat OCD. Solidarity, my friend. 🩵

Username: Miss.OCDMiss.OCD

Date posted: 28w ago

@NarnianWanderer I’m glad to hear you are doing better. I was the same as you. 2020/2021 the thoughts were relentless!! 24/7 with constant anxiety. I even remember being in the bath thinking I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m now 2 years down the line where I still have some rough days but it’s very rare. I still get thoughts, still have dreams but I’ve just learnt that that is my brain! The anxiety is no longer existent however the feeling of wanting reassurance will always be there if I have a thought which is frustrating! I hope you’re doing better 🤍

Username: ckathcleo1

Date posted: 50w ago

So-ocd

Hi there, I am looking to get some support and advice, I recently started to suffer from SO-OCD due to tiktok. My feed started to have videos " if you did this or thought this you are gay" or videos of girls coming out later in life. I have never questioned my sexuality and have always been with men, I find it triggering as some of the things mentioned in the videos, I agree with but never thought it could mean I was gay. It had made me question everything and made me try to look back on the past to see if there were any evidence of this. I am nowhere near homophobic, but this is not the life I want for myself, so why is my mind so fixate on these thoughts if this is not who I identify nor want. I also struggle with ROCD Any advice or support would be greatly appreciated! xx

Username: Jm55

Date posted: 37w ago

SO-OCD help, masc woman

I need help because I’m really struggling right now. There is a masc woman/lesbian athlete that came up on my tik tok and it feels like I have a crush on her. Now I keep getting intrusive sexual images about her. I don’t want to have a crush on a girl but it feels so real. I absolutely hate this and want to cry because now I feel like Im attracted to her. Has this happened to anyone else???

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: kate5603

Date posted: 35w ago

SO-OCD

I haven’t really had a lot of trouble with my SO-OCD intrusive thoughts for a while, but I just got really triggered by one of my friends. I’m a straight female and I recently discovered the singer Chappell Roan, who sings primarily about LGBTQ+ and lesbian experiences. Listening to her music was a big deal for me because normally that sort of thing would trigger me, but it’s pretty catchy to me and a few of my friends (who happen to be lesbian) thought it was cool and were happy I was into the same music they were into. Well today, I sent them a text that I’ve fallen down the rabbit hole with her music and am starting to watch her interviews, which is something I usually do when I discover a new artist (I tend to hyperfixate on things a lot). After sending this text, one of my friends said “are you sure you’re not gay” which sent me into an intrusive thought spiral. In the past, she’s said I set off her “gaydar” which was also really triggering to me. My brain keeps telling me that if I come off that way, it must mean I’m lying to myself and I’m actually a lesbian. I wanted to tell her that I have SO-OCD and those types of comments trigger me, but I don’t want her to take it as me not being accepting of gay people. I felt like I finally got to a place where I’m confident I’m straight and now my brain is trying to trick me into thinking I’m lying to myself and it really sucks. I’m really just posting this because I don’t feel like anyone in my life would understand what these thoughts even feel like and it’s just awful.

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