what do you guys do when it feels so real? i’m doubting everything i ever knew, this is terrifying. it feels so real. stuff i used to be certain about i have no idea anymore.
The key to this is that it brings you stress. That’s how you can usually spot OCD- but even then it’ll try to pretend “oh no you don’t feel stress!!” But for now, just know that your fear is your saving grace actually. You fear it? It’s ego dystonic and it can be just as simple as that :)
I was in and out of this too when it was really bad. I like to describe it as going into a dark tunnel. Every tunnel you go through has another side, so you just kind of stick to your core gut feeling of “there’s an end to this tunnel.” For me it’s “okay, well, I know that I’m in control of me right now and the me right now doesn’t want any of that.” I’m still unsure at times, but after a while, I got a little tired of focusing on whether or not I was sure. The reality is, sexuality and attraction are elusive, if you search for things to prove what you’re attracted to, you’ll find that if you really try hard enough, anybody can find ANYTHING “attractive.” The thought is sexual in nature, so naturally, you’re gonna feel like it’s real. Eventually, you come to a point where you start to not care because you haven’t done anything and you never will 💜
@Dreamer2343 thank you for saying all that. it gives me some hope :)
@auds.ocd Absolutely and there is hope. I do remember what it was like, but to encourage you, I’ve been good for about half a year now, no episodes, no breakdowns or anything.
I’m in the same trench. Been debilitating the last few days.
Its just your intrusive thoughts. The fact that you dont like them goes to show how you dont agree with them. I hope your OCD gets better
Oh and to add, the key here is try not to doubt at all. Don’t interact with the thought. It wants you to interact with it. Say “okay, that’s ocd” and just move on. It’s hard at first, so I recommend having someone with you that you can say it to, someone you trust that knows you have ocd. I have no idea where I’d be if I couldn’t tell my boyfriend every horrendous ocd thought I’d had and he would remind me, yep, but that’s ocd.
does anyone else get INTENSE derealization (it’s the worse for me when i wake up from a dream in the middle of the night) and it’s so bad that it genuinely feels like nothing is real, not even thoughts are real, consciousness is not real, what the heck are we doing on a floating ball in the middle of darkness?? i feel like im in a simulation or a dream. i hate it sm ive had it everyday for 5 years, but tbh im not surprised it hasn’t gotten better because I have gone through some traumatic things recently and have had bad mental health. hopefully it could get better soon idk.
This situation just happened and I can definitely remember how it went but my brain is telling me otherwise and I know you guys said to sit with the uncertainty but what if the intrusive thought is so bad like disgusting, I can’t sit with that. Maybe it’s false memory but this just happened. I don’t even know how to live with this
I have really bed harming intrusive thoughts and sometimes feels like it’s feeling! The thoughts happening every day and the hardest part is that I’m testing my self in head all the time if that’s what I am or want!!! Also, so many times feels like I’m been tricking myself and doctor or people and maybe I don’t have OCD, just that maybe it’s me really!!!! How can I know who I am really 🥹???!!??
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