what do you guys do when it feels so real? i’m doubting everything i ever knew, this is terrifying. it feels so real. stuff i used to be certain about i have no idea anymore.
The key to this is that it brings you stress. That’s how you can usually spot OCD- but even then it’ll try to pretend “oh no you don’t feel stress!!” But for now, just know that your fear is your saving grace actually. You fear it? It’s ego dystonic and it can be just as simple as that :)
I was in and out of this too when it was really bad. I like to describe it as going into a dark tunnel. Every tunnel you go through has another side, so you just kind of stick to your core gut feeling of “there’s an end to this tunnel.” For me it’s “okay, well, I know that I’m in control of me right now and the me right now doesn’t want any of that.” I’m still unsure at times, but after a while, I got a little tired of focusing on whether or not I was sure. The reality is, sexuality and attraction are elusive, if you search for things to prove what you’re attracted to, you’ll find that if you really try hard enough, anybody can find ANYTHING “attractive.” The thought is sexual in nature, so naturally, you’re gonna feel like it’s real. Eventually, you come to a point where you start to not care because you haven’t done anything and you never will 💜
@Dreamer2343 thank you for saying all that. it gives me some hope :)
@auds.ocd Absolutely and there is hope. I do remember what it was like, but to encourage you, I’ve been good for about half a year now, no episodes, no breakdowns or anything.
Its just your intrusive thoughts. The fact that you dont like them goes to show how you dont agree with them. I hope your OCD gets better
Oh and to add, the key here is try not to doubt at all. Don’t interact with the thought. It wants you to interact with it. Say “okay, that’s ocd” and just move on. It’s hard at first, so I recommend having someone with you that you can say it to, someone you trust that knows you have ocd. I have no idea where I’d be if I couldn’t tell my boyfriend every horrendous ocd thought I’d had and he would remind me, yep, but that’s ocd.
I’m in the same trench. Been debilitating the last few days.
im beginning to doubt my own memories and fundamental things about myself :\ every time i make a claim it's like my brain gets a little foggy and i start questioning it. for example i might narrate an event, or state a fact about something or someone, and question whether that really is true or happened. and when i get that thought it's like my brain goes blank and i don't know how to get back on track. i constantly feel like a liar. i also had a phase where i excessively doubted my identity and personality. every time i expressed a strong opinion or emotion, or made a statement about who i am as a person i got an unwanted thought that said "is this really who you are" and my mind would go blank again. id also feel anxious and hopeless. i compensate for this by taking personality tests on the internet to reassure myself that im secure in my identity and have an actual personality, but it can also be triggering sometimes because when im unsure about something i start feeling like i have no identity again ;( this is stupid i know
Hi everyone, struggling at the moment with existenal OCD, keep getting thoughts of "how do I know that everything i see, feel and touch is real" ...like literally everything... how do I know its just all not made up in my head? Its the most terrifying thought and not sure how to deal with it? .. anyone else suffer with this same thought?
I am doubting my existence, my surroundings like i am not even able to figure out what am I questioning what is life? Am in a dream? Like aaahhhhh! Or am I healing?
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