what do you guys do when it feels so real? i’m doubting everything i ever knew, this is terrifying. it feels so real. stuff i used to be certain about i have no idea anymore.
The key to this is that it brings you stress. That’s how you can usually spot OCD- but even then it’ll try to pretend “oh no you don’t feel stress!!” But for now, just know that your fear is your saving grace actually. You fear it? It’s ego dystonic and it can be just as simple as that :)
I was in and out of this too when it was really bad. I like to describe it as going into a dark tunnel. Every tunnel you go through has another side, so you just kind of stick to your core gut feeling of “there’s an end to this tunnel.” For me it’s “okay, well, I know that I’m in control of me right now and the me right now doesn’t want any of that.” I’m still unsure at times, but after a while, I got a little tired of focusing on whether or not I was sure. The reality is, sexuality and attraction are elusive, if you search for things to prove what you’re attracted to, you’ll find that if you really try hard enough, anybody can find ANYTHING “attractive.” The thought is sexual in nature, so naturally, you’re gonna feel like it’s real. Eventually, you come to a point where you start to not care because you haven’t done anything and you never will 💜
@Dreamer2343 thank you for saying all that. it gives me some hope :)
@auds.ocd Absolutely and there is hope. I do remember what it was like, but to encourage you, I’ve been good for about half a year now, no episodes, no breakdowns or anything.
I’m in the same trench. Been debilitating the last few days.
Its just your intrusive thoughts. The fact that you dont like them goes to show how you dont agree with them. I hope your OCD gets better
Oh and to add, the key here is try not to doubt at all. Don’t interact with the thought. It wants you to interact with it. Say “okay, that’s ocd” and just move on. It’s hard at first, so I recommend having someone with you that you can say it to, someone you trust that knows you have ocd. I have no idea where I’d be if I couldn’t tell my boyfriend every horrendous ocd thought I’d had and he would remind me, yep, but that’s ocd.
I don't know what's real. I don't know who I am, I don't know if everything I believe is made up, all my emotions, my memories..it feels fake, I'm stressed the fuck out because I can't even tell if my past is real
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
I’ve been feeling so disconnected lately, like I’m not even living my own life. It’s like I’m being controlled by someone else, and I have no say in what’s happening. It’s hard to put this feeling into words, but it’s like I’m here physically, but mentally, I’m just... not. Every day feels like a struggle. I wake up afraid of what’s coming next, almost like I’m bracing myself for the next bad thing to happen. Sometimes, I don’t even want to get out of bed because it feels pointless, like I’m stuck in this loop of fear and doubt. I keep questioning everything, life, my purpose, my choices, and it’s exhausting. I just want to feel like myself again, to feel like I have control, like I’m really here.
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