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Hey- in my experience, my ocd always flares when I have extreme emotions, so I think that’s likely happening. I heard on a podcast that we (people with ocd) don’t like emotions. It fits for me. Also, I heard that we should invite our ocd to stressful events. “What you resist persists”. I get why you don’t want it to flare up right now. I’m going through something stressful too, and I had an awful flare up (after almost 4 years in recovery). What’s helping is doing exposures, basically “maybe” all of those unknowns and just being like, “yeah, ocd is here. Whatever.” I’m so sorry your heart is broken but maybe try to reframe this as a great opportunity to grow! When we have flare ups, it’s an opportunity to fill in gaps in our understanding/management of ocd. I recommend: 1- extra self-care and compassion 2- exposures/welcoming the uncertainty 3- listening to some ocd podcasts (maybe Kimberly Quinlan’s anxiety toolkit)

I’m going through this same exact thing currently. I saw this post was 172 days ago. Were you able to come to peace with this? I’m struggling with hope right now I hope that I can believe why we broke up and feel it instead of getting in my head and believing the lies I obsess over.