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I always think I may need hospitalisation
Because of the harm ocd.. anybody else think about that all the time? š«š« Iām in therapy and she doesnāt think that way but Iām obsessing about it
Because of the harm ocd.. anybody else think about that all the time? š«š« Iām in therapy and she doesnāt think that way but Iām obsessing about it
What has your therapist tried doing with you?
@Wolfram What do you mean? Weāre doing CBT and general therapy
@confused writer Have you talked to them about the possibility of erp?
@Wolfram Yes. She doesnāt do that I think. I donāt really know. But how can ERP help me with that? š
@confused writer It challenges the fear directly. You'll feel like you'll have a panic attack and it's overwhelming to do but I got rid of a phobia I had for 15 years in 4minutes initially and about 2 follow up erp exercises
@Wolfram I try to do exposures to myself with knifes and sharp objects, but it doesnāt work so much. I donāt feel anxious I just feel like itās tempting to do something and then put me in stress after sometimes š«š«
@confused writer Erp makes you sit with that stress.
@Wolfram But if I donāt get stressed? What does that mean? š¤¦š»āāļø
@confused writer So wait, when exactly do you get stressed?
@Wolfram I have some kind of anxiety parts of the day. But it doesnāt necessarily happen in exposure, but in the thoughts. More like distress if that makes sense
@confused writer What do you mean by in exposure? What do you think the exposure is?
@Wolfram I can get stressed out of no where bc of the thoughts. When I stand with a knife (some kind of exposure) I can feel tempted. And then Iāll put it down. And tell myself something like āif youād really want youād do it alreadyā or just continue with my day. And I can not be stressed at all, just distress. Or ok, but with the thoughts.
@confused writer OK I had to look at the difference between the two. I understand what distress is and can relate. When exactly are you feeling the distress, what triggers it? I'm making sure I understand before I answer because I don't want to give the wrong one as it'll lose the correct context
@Wolfram The distress come with bad feeling (depression attack ? Idk) and feeling of hopelessness and the thoughts are VERY LOUD AND AGGRESSIVE. most of the time I can feel like Iām not stressed but talk about it all day long. And sometimes just stressed like today because the thoughts make me feel bad and I donāt understand why I want that
@confused writer I believe I understand. The last time these thoughts kicked in and you felt distressed, what happened in your day? Was there anything that upset you, made you feel anxious, angry or stressed you out in any way? Could be big or small issues (and by smallI mean like the tiniest annoyances )
@confused writer I feel from what you've said that you're OK talking and thinking about it when you're not stressed or distressed and that doesn't trigger you. But when you are triggered, it's an issue. Does that sound right?
@Wolfram Something like that I think. I donāt really know to explain. Itās hard. Idk how my therapist is so sure itās OCD. it scares me š„²
@confused writer So it sounds like stress in general is a trigger which would get the fight or flight bit of your brain kicking in. Then that would trigger the intrusive thought with your theme and then escalate because it's scary af. Sound familiar or no?
@Wolfram The thoughts are always there, just sometimes very real. But yes
@confused writer I think erp will work on finding out what your core values are. They'll expose you to something that stresses you out in order to trigger these thoughts and feelings. Get you to react differently to them once they've taught you how to. Then when you've done that maybe change a perception or something with your core values so it's not as extreme and leave you with that new point of view to sink in at the end of the sessions. This is basically what I did They may even look at your life on a week to week basis and write down all your stressors or any triggers you've noticed.
@confused writer Hi erp is the gold standard for combating ocd. CBT does help but not if youāre mixing it with talk/ regular therapy.
@httpet What do you mean? Is CBT with talk less effective?
@confused writer I know that talk therapy often just doesnāt work for ocd since it can be used as reassurance which is a compulsion. I would advise getting ERP since I know that is the best according to ocd specialist
So you're fine actually being with a knife but it's thoughts that scare you? What did you mean by you cannot be stressed at all, just distress?
@Wolfram There are some times where I am really distressed because of the thoughts. And I feel like I have to stay in my room. Iām not fine being with a knife because it makes me feel like I wanna do it. And then I just put it down
@confused writer So you know thoughts can be an exposure too right?
Hello everyone. I often get the feeling that I will go crazy or in a state of permanent suffering. The thought is very persistent and I think is OCD repeating that disturbing thought. If anyone feels the same way. What do you do about it?
The thought of ocd being long-term is scaring me pretty bad. My therapist told me in our first visit last week that it will always come back and it triggered me. I know everyone says itās manageable, but I keep having the thought that I wonāt be able to handle it the rest of my life and I will want to suic. myself. I am terrified :(
When is ocd so bad that someone canāt deal with it on their own? I honestly donāt know if itās just my brain telling me I canāt deal with it when I really can, but then I start thinking if I tell myself I can deal with it when I really canāt, then Iāll actually loose it. In my mind, my safe haven has been remembering that I can always go to the hospital if I feel so bad. Because Iām so terrified of getting stress induced psychosis because of this extensive fear. I finally start to feel better and then my mind tells me that I have to worry about it to prevent it from happening. Each hour feels draining to get through and Iām terrified of each thoughts possibility that I know Iād feel better if I was hospitalized and kept away from doing potential harm. I go to therapy every other week but I feel like I need every week and actually more than once a week because each day feels hard to get through and it takes forever to get to therapy.
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