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it has gotten way better for me. personally this was the ONE theme (this + having a trichotillomania compulsion)that i NEVER thought i would have. i honestly judged ppl w this hard and thought it could never be me. then last year i was in a very stressful environment and somehow it was triggered inside of me. i will say this theme is the WORST theme i have EVER struggled with, even compared to my compulsive skin picking in middle school that was leaving my skin raw and i would choose that over this any day. to be honest idk how i “healed” from this theme. unfortunately i picked up a new main theme and i feel like it was what took my mind off of it. it also helped me to realize that ocd targets your fears and things u care about the most. no one who is an actual ____ would be so worried sick about “what if this is me one day…” etc. trust me🫶🏻u will get through it

Hi! I am in recovery and I know exactly what you’re going through. When I first starting having intrusive thoughts about POCD I didn’t even know ocd could manifest like that so I thought it was just P. Therapy was so hard at first I really just felt like I was constantly being lied to by my therapist and I actually was a P. But eventually slowly but surely I started to feel better. I learned how to manage my ocd and anxiety so much better. Medication helped push me towards full recovery mode and now I’m able to go on with my day/ life whenever I get a thought. I know right now it’s hard but just know you are NOT along and you are so loved and you’re a kind person! Wish you the best!!! I highly recommend getting an ocd specialist not a regular talk therapist!