fear everyday

everyday i’m convinced that i’m going to hurt the people i love most. i wake up thankful it didn’t happen but then i get scared thinking about “what if today is that day you go through with it”. but then i ask myself go through with what? i don’t any intention to kill or a plan to do so. so why? why do i keep getting scared that i’m secretly wanting to do it? i’m so afraid right now, like my mind is going to rationalize it. i don’t want to hurt my family, so why does it feel this way? i’m so tired of this

Harm OCD

Username: Adrimarie10Adrimarie10

Date posted: 42w ago

You’re not alone. I’m with you 100%. I recently started having hard thoughts when I got pregnant and recently had a miscarriage a week ago. They won’t go away and there towards the people I love and adore the most which is making me feel not good. But just hang in there ! I recovered from PTSD and depression - it’s very possible to get better from a mental health matter. Trust me you’ll be okay 👍 also remind yourself (what helps me) that it’s just an intrusive thought- thoughts aren’t a fact. We tend to think about what we fear the most. Remember to breathe 👍

Username: Adrimarie10Adrimarie10

Date posted: 42w ago

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Username: Cloudbunny19Cloudbunny19

Date posted: 42w ago

I just wanna let you know I’m going through the exact same thing and you’re not alone. It is very exhausting and distressing. You can get through this! Yes they’re scary and feel like one day you can loose control but remember these are just thoughts, OCD tries to give you those thoughts about the people you love because they’re the people we value most in life and it’s the opposite of what we want to do. If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here!

Username: f_ocdf_ocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 42w ago

Had these before I’ve seen you like my posts about them and I know you’ve seen my story. I can’t stress enough the power of the thought “maybe maybe not”. It’s terrifying to think that it could happen. You know what you want and how you are as a person, just from this post I can tell you are a gentle person. Tell yourself “this could happen” and sit with it, as much as those thoughts come up. I believe in you. You got this.

Username: f_ocdf_ocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 42w ago

@Parker_b You’re not always gonna get things right, don’t beat yourself up if it’s hard for a while. 10 minutes ago I was blasting music with headphones on in my room with a pillow over my head because my Tocd was so loud. After a couple maybe maybe nots I’m back to feeling a little better.

Username: Ragnarking18

Date posted: 22w ago

Parents with harm ocd

I love my son more than anything. Just writing that's making me tear up from guilt of these violent thoughts. Everyday for the last 2 weeks I cry. I don't want to move from my couch. He's 6 and he looks up to me and is always around me and I feel so guilty from these thoughts I want to avoid him but I can't. I feel guilty whenever a happy thought comes up or when I do anything I like. The ocd tells me why r u doing anything you enjoy remember what you were thinking earlier. My brain is constantly ruminating this specific scenario it's conjured up that makes me frozen. As soon as I wake up the thoughts start and never end. its a struggle to get ready for work and even go home or go to the gym all things I love. I haven't hidden knives around my house because I think I'm giving in if I do. I know coming on here is a compulsion but I can't help it today. I'm ready to just runaway but something in me keeps me from leaving the family I love so much. I'll get through this but had to write it out

Username: Anonymous 54...

Date posted: 21w ago

vacation *plz respond!*

Okay, i leave for vacation tomorrow with my boyfriend and some of our friends. i’m so nervous about this trip and im really worried that i would hurt someone on this trip. i don’t want to hurt anyone, and im so so worried about it. i don’t even want to go anymore because im so stressed out. i’m not really getting any intrusive thoughts or anything but im still so anxious that im going to do something like stab one of my friends or my boyfriend, or lose my mind. i’m so worried. and then i seen this thing that said “people who hurt people do that because they want to and they plan it out” so now im scared that im subconsciously planning on hurting one of them even though i dont have a plan or anything and i dont want to hurt anyone. AGGHH😭

Username: Pipipopo

Date posted: 19w ago

Please help I feel insane

I can't do this anymore I feel fucking insane my mind keeps telling me I want to k word people and if feels like my mind is making fucking plans. I'm diagnosed with ocd but I don't even know if it's ocd what if I'm just a terrible fucking person that actually wants to do this. My mind is literally telling me to go buy a weapon and hurt people like I get fucking urges. I can't keep food down and have not for the last few days I feel like I need to go to a mental hospital but I don't want to burden anyone in my family. Like my mind tells me specifically I want to do this but I don't want to but recently ive been having the thought of what if I did do it but I don't want to. I just want it to stop I'm a good person I don't want to hurt anyone at all. But what if one day I actually do want to do something. I can't do this anymore.

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