- Username
- stargirlll
- Date posted
- 42w ago
fear everyday
everyday i’m convinced that i’m going to hurt the people i love most. i wake up thankful it didn’t happen but then i get scared thinking about “what if today is that day you go through with it”. but then i ask myself go through with what? i don’t any intention to kill or a plan to do so. so why? why do i keep getting scared that i’m secretly wanting to do it? i’m so afraid right now, like my mind is going to rationalize it. i don’t want to hurt my family, so why does it feel this way? i’m so tired of this