I have liked boys all my life but I am fully convinced that I have a crush on a girl I work with. I think of being with her and involving sexual acts and it doesnt bother me and sometimes I like it. I then want to cry because it scares me so much. Sometimes it makes me happy and I dont even recognize myself anymore.

Regardless of whether you have a crush on this person or not, you don’t have to act on it. Part of letting it go is accepting the chances of it being true. If you have a crush on her, will your entire world change? I doubt it. I struggled with this a bit too but you have to ask yourself this (and be COMPLETELY honest about your feelings too): in what ways does she make you happy? What does she mean to you? In that moment, you have to follow your gut. What will make YOU happier? Pursuing a possible romance/liking her or perhaps keeping it platonic/friendly?

Here is what WORKED for me: -Think of ur mind as a second person, as person who always with u, its not u but another person. -This way u know that ur mind is seperate from u. -Now just observe all the thoughts & emotions thrown at u by ur mind(the second person). -Do not fight or react, only observe, acknowledge and let the thoughts stay. -Now you can see that this person(ur mind) is mostly talking rubbish. - Then u can process the useful thoughts & ignore the useless thoughts.

either let the thought pass or come to terms with it! it might not be ocd, it could be real.

Are you working with any therapists?