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Hi! I think you know that you’re being irrational here. The helplines both told you it isn’t transmitted like that so that’s fact. You don’t have HIV. Take your mind off this somehow and relax, you’re safe & it’s just your ocd talking x
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Thankyou xxx
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Just for context: I stuck my hand into a bush to turn on the hose and got poked by something. I straight up convinced myself that there was an hiv covered needle in the bush outside my house sticking straight up???? <—- this is and not rational LOL and similar to the spiral you just described. Im hoping my spiral is distanced enough from your own to see the irrational aspect of it. No shade or shame at all to your story, im hoping this is helpful to examine. All the best xx
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I’m scared the blood wasn’t mine and it got in my cut and infected me
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Do you genuinely see my situation as irrational yeah? I actually HOPE I’m being irrational so I can put it to bed haha ? thanks for replying xx
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Can’t believe I called again ? Guy on the hiv helpline said “no risk, no need to test, it would have to be a deep open wound requiring stitches and hiv doesn’t survive outside the body, try not to worry” Also it was probably my own blood ? The sexual health helpline said pretty much the same fucking thing too what’s my PROBLEM ?
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I called him again just to reiterate He said the fact the blood was liquid form doesn’t matter I’m STILL not at risk and my partner isn’t either He was so lovely and when I apologised for being frustrating he said not to worry and think about getting help for the anxiety. He said I was a picnic compared to some people He tried to talk me through various reasons why I’m not at risk: my cracked bleeding hand isn’t an entry point. There’s no way it would survive outside the body. I’d need to have a gaping wound requiring stitches and the blood would have to be essentially poured in. Statistically I’m more likely to win the lottery than even come into contact with that kind of blood He just told me to take care then
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I just felt immense relief - remember this when ocd attacks again
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- 21w
This fear keeps coming back and it’s to the point I cry and what to panic. I no longer talk to the man simply because I wanted to move on and find something meaningful to have with someone (relationship wise). I still keep fearing I need to go get my blood checked. Thoughts like “what if I have it and don’t know it and give to someone?” “What if that urine test I took months ago didn’t work” I got tested for stds but it came back negative. They took a urine test but google says you have to have your blood drawn!! I’m so scared. My mind tells me “you have HIV” and then a sense of peace comes and scares me even more!!!
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- 18w
In September I had unprotected oral sex. I haven’t had sex in five years because even before that I was so ashamed and worried about sex. I finally did it and then a few weeks later while I was at work I started to be very itchy all in my underwear area like up to my butt. I didnt see any blisters or anything but when I googled it, herpes came up. Eventually I thought maybe it was the new underwear I bought and it went away after I stopped wearing them. However it’s returned twice, mostly when I’m really worried about herpes. I know this makes little sense because I don’t thinking about it would cause an outbreak but, either way I’m really nervous to go get tested because I heard there’s a high false positive rate and if I get a positive there’s a huge chance I will just become a recluse and never speak to anyone again. I already have so much trauma with sex, vaginismus, etc. I can’t imagine telling anyone I have herpes and then they 1) don’t want to be with me 2) now know this and could tell anyone they want Even if I don’t have it I was reading it could be asymptomatic and 80% of people who have it don’t even know, so now I’m worried I will get it no matter what sex I have. I can barely handle staying alive with just OCD but now with social stigma with herpes I will feel like I can not even live a normal life. I am already freaking out about it and don’t know what to do. I am worried to go get tested and it saying I have it, and then I’m worried to not and potentially spread it, I’m not even having sex with anyone right now so it’s not like I would. But I’m worried I will forget to wash my hands and touch something and someone else will touch it and then get it. I’m just having a really bad time.
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- 15w
This is a long one lol but basically, a couple of weeks ago I went to the toilet (#2, sorry for the tmi). Let's just say it was messy. I remember that a speck of.. #2.. Fell off the piece of toilet paper. This was probably the worst thing that could ever happen. I can't remember clearly but I'm pretty sure my jeans were on the floor underneath near where the speck could have fallen. There was also a towel. I don't know exactly where it fell as it was so small, but I made sure both the towel and the jeans went in the laundry basket and I cleaned the floor near there. Fast forward to like the next day. My mum does most of the laundry, so she will have picked up all the towels and clothes from the laundry basket and taken them to the wash. The problem is the speck. I don't know where it went but if it was on the towel and she picked it up.... Thus, contaminated mum. And she also puts clothes away that are dry. I remember that day she put my hoodie in my wardrobe, and I haven't worn it since because I feel it is contaminated. I haven't worn the clothes that have touched the hoodie. This leaves me with not a lot of clothes. And today I finally snapped and picked up a sweatshirt that had maybe touched the hoodie. And now I'm just sat here spiralling, wearing it. What if it touched the speck? What if the speck touched my mum and then touched the hoodie which then touched the sweatshirt I'm wearing? Please I'm so scared.
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