Guys I need help!! Two days ago my hand bled from cracked skin from hand washing too much. I got on a train with my fresh bleeding hand and as I sat down, my hand with the fresh small bleeding cut on banged against the plastic head rest. I didn’t notice before If there was any blood on the plastic, but when I looked up there was what looked like fresh blood on the area I think I knocked my hand on. Since then I’ve had this overwhelming fear that it might have been someone else’s blood, and now I’m riddled with hiv etc. I phoned the hiv helpline and sexual health helpline numerous times and they got frustrated with me and said it’s not transmitted like that. I’m terrified I’ll ruin my partner’s life

Contamination OCD

Username: ANGEL xANGEL x

Date posted: 5y ago

Hi! I think you know that you’re being irrational here. The helplines both told you it isn’t transmitted like that so that’s fact. You don’t have HIV. Take your mind off this somehow and relax, you’re safe & it’s just your ocd talking x

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

Thankyou xxx

Username: shuryishuryi

Date posted: 5y ago

Just for context: I stuck my hand into a bush to turn on the hose and got poked by something. I straight up convinced myself that there was an hiv covered needle in the bush outside my house sticking straight up???? <—- this is and not rational LOL and similar to the spiral you just described. Im hoping my spiral is distanced enough from your own to see the irrational aspect of it. No shade or shame at all to your story, im hoping this is helpful to examine. All the best xx

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m scared the blood wasn’t mine and it got in my cut and infected me

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

Do you genuinely see my situation as irrational yeah? I actually HOPE I’m being irrational so I can put it to bed haha ? thanks for replying xx

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

Can’t believe I called again ? Guy on the hiv helpline said “no risk, no need to test, it would have to be a deep open wound requiring stitches and hiv doesn’t survive outside the body, try not to worry” Also it was probably my own blood ? The sexual health helpline said pretty much the same fucking thing too what’s my PROBLEM ?

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

I called him again just to reiterate He said the fact the blood was liquid form doesn’t matter I’m STILL not at risk and my partner isn’t either He was so lovely and when I apologised for being frustrating he said not to worry and think about getting help for the anxiety. He said I was a picnic compared to some people He tried to talk me through various reasons why I’m not at risk: my cracked bleeding hand isn’t an entry point. There’s no way it would survive outside the body. I’d need to have a gaping wound requiring stitches and the blood would have to be essentially poured in. Statistically I’m more likely to win the lottery than even come into contact with that kind of blood He just told me to take care then

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

I just felt immense relief - remember this when ocd attacks again

Username: danocd

Date posted: 5y ago

I have a problem that I'm scared to catch a serious illness like hiv or aids from kissing people or becoming to close to them. It makes me get away from people and I have problems in relationships because I cant trust them if they are clean and I'm too freak... this Sunday I kissed a girl I met on tinder and she made me an scar on my mouth... and now I feel terrible cause if her blood got into my scar I may have caught hiv. I have been 3 days on terrible distress and this sucks... I dont know how to not think about it and I really dont talk to this girl anymore, I checked her mouth 2 or 3 times for injuries or blood (she didn't had any and I dont know if she has hiv or not) but I'm in terrible distress just for the fact that I had an open cut while kissing her and thst kiss could have made me sick with hiv. I really hate this and I hate myself and my decisions of kissing her. And this combines qith my religious compulsions... I'm really hating myself, OCD and illness right now... I'm in big distress and just want to vent a little bit. I just hope I didn't caught hiv from kissing this girl that made me an open cut as I said before but I cant be sure and this makes me crazy.... I just hate it... and hate this thoughts

Username: Fightingocd

Date posted: 1y ago

Fear of contamination

Hey, I hope you’re doing good! My bf was taking his shower and I’m so dumb I let my shaver in the shower, and he cut himself with it when he wanted to grab the soap! Now I’m so scared of what if I have a disease (hepatitis, HIV or something) and that he will get it ! The last time I used this shaver was the morning before and I heard that viruses as HIV can not stay out of the body.. can someone tell me if I have to worry for him in this case ? Thank you so much

Username: Mooooni

Date posted: 45w ago

HIV OCD. I’m tired of it!!

I was at the gas station and the guy next to me pumping gas was talking to me and wanted to shake my hand. I have HIV OCD and I’m afraid that somebody will prick me and why Avoid handshakes or touching people. I ended up, shaking his hand as “exposure therapy”. I told myself to not live in fear and challenge myself and do an exposure to prove to myself that I can handle it. I’m sitting in my car and I’m trying not to let the negative thought get to me. I know if he would’ve pricked me, I would’ve felt it, I would’ve had a bloody stingy finger. I remember his hands being soft. I’m trying really hard to overcome my fears.

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