I don’t want reassurance but need helping changing my thought patterns.i texted my buddy last night to get together to do something today and I haven’t heard from him all day today. My mind is running into various reasons as to why he didn’t text and they are all negative reasons. I automatically assume he doesn’t want to be burdened with hanging out with me or he found something better to do. I stress myself out wondering if I’m supposed to text him and ask again. Wtf

For some reason, my brain gets upset when my boyfriend hangs out with other people. I know I shouldn’t feel this way, but sometimes I can’t help it. I understand that he has a life outside of our relationship, and that’s great. He reassures me all the time, in fact, he often tells me he would rather spend time with me than with his friends. He’s a perfect partner, and I love him more than anything. However, I don’t want this to become an issue in our relationship. I know why my mind thinks this way, even though I don’t believe it to be true. My brain keeps telling me that he would rather be somewhere else than with me. Those words repeat in my head every time he’s out with friends, and I don’t know why. I want to find a solution to this obsessive and jealous thought so that I don’t ruin his time with friends. I really need help with this issue.❤️

This is probably not OCD but I have made a post about this guy. So long story short, last week I texted him asking how his day went with his mom and all that. So he then texts me “how was your day” and I said good and I said “yours” and he said “tough” “I’m going to bed ttyl “ I asked what happened and what’s wrong and never get a response. Next day at work he’s not talking to me so I thought to myself to just wait and give him space. Hours later I eventually ask him at work if he was okay and he said he’ll talk to me after work. Never does. Still never talks to me. The next day is Sunday and he still never texts me so I continue getting ready for church and ended up staying hom and telling him “I’m staying home this Sunday” “I’m proud of you for getting baptized” still no answer until finally Monday night or Tuesday morning he responds with “THX” I come in to work today and my cousin (manager) says he asked her if (the other manager) was going to church tomorrow she tells him “she said no” and then my cousin says “did you ask Bree?” (That’s my name) and he says “I really don’t want to talk to her right now”) he asks my cousin will she go to church with him. I keep overthinking “what in the world did I do” I’m trying to figure out what happened. I feel crazy for wondering what happened for him to all of sudden do this. I just like him as a friend but now I’m starting to dislike him period and have permanently deleted our messages and blocked him today. I took my time and thought hard before blocking and deleting. Maybe he’ll talk to me maybe not but we’re adults and I’m trying to figure out what i did because I’m really confused

i'm chatting with this person on discord. i don't know why i think that way, but i started questioning whether they secretly hate me or will judge me in some way. i always expect people to leave me and i'll be all alone. it's scary them not responding to my messages sometimes also fuels that fear. i know they're busy or get distracted sometimes, which isn't their fault at all, but my brain won't stop making worse case scenario and therefore i'm constantly checking when they'll reply to me. they have proved multiple times to me that they're a good person, that they like me and that i have nothing to worry about, yet i can't stop ruminating on the hypotheticals i made before starting to talk to them on a more personal level. i feel like i'm going crazy. my only salvation is random distractions and heart meds.