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Omg I hope this gets bettee
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Thank you guys :(
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This is abusive behaviour and is 100 percent not your fault in any way. If your father isn’t coping with your struggles, it is his responsibility to get help he needs and taking it out on you is awful behaviour. Do you have any trusted adults you can speak to about this outside of your family ?
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Just remember that they CHOOSE to treat you the way they do, and it is not your fault how they choose to respond, that is entirely on them. Maybe you are a handful sometimes, but you don’t deserve that kind of treatment from your own parents. You’re struggling and you need support and not abuse. You wouldn’t treat a child suffering from a physical disability the way they treat you. It’s NO different. You are worthy and you are needed and you are not the sum of how your parents treat you. Hold in there. I’m so sorry you’re in such awful position, but you aren’t alone.
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I hope so. I get worse every day and I want to die more and more. I feel worthless and my life feels the same way. My willpower is drained from this disease. I'm so tired...
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Be strong you can beat your ocd
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Don't lose hope you are not alone we all are there
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I’m so sorry to hear this. Keep fighting❤️
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They always pick their side, honestly, I mean I'm the crazy one who washes her hands 100 times after all. They enable me a lot (I know its bad but its hard to break this patterns after almost 3 years... I wanna but they get mad at me when I have panic attacks, not a great incentive) and people feel bad for them that they have a kid like me it seems like. I feel completely and utterly alone. It also doesn't help that the workers never saw their breakdowns but they have seen mine. I get that they're tired, but do they really need to threaten to kick me out every time my OCD makes me freak out and cry... :(
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I asked them that too, if I was in a wheelchair if they'd do this to me too, they told me it was different. They enable me for years and 3 weeks before treatment they stop, it almost feels like they want me to lose my mind :(
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Chellie, just hang in there. I can understand how painful hearing that from your parents can be. I have had family members straight up try and disown me because of how much I (unintentionally) drained them. Just hang in there. I want you to live! We all here want you to live! You can get better! Trust me! It just takes time and the right strategies, but I promise you, it is shining very brightly outside if this dark cave we are in, and one day, we will make it out and will finally enjoy the sunshine and freedom that is rightfully ours!
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Chellie, I feel the same way... But, just know, someone out there (me) cares about you. Even though that might not mean much, because we don't know each other. I have you in my thoughts. I will add there is new hope on the horizon. New medicications that work different from all the other meds and new methode are on the horizon. I know that in your country that perhaps this mental illness isn't seen as super serious, but here in my country (US) it is seen as serious and there are many organizations working hard day and night to find ways to put this disease in the history books. If we can just tough it out just a bit longer, we will perhaps be able to live full, productive, and meaningful lives!
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Thank you so much you are such a sweetheart. Could you check out my latest post? I could use some help if you are ok with that
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@Chellie Can you please read my clarifications to what I said on your other post? Please?
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I am so angry with ocd. I hate that ocd even exists. I wouldn’t necessarily say I wanted to be a mom when I was younger. I grew up without my mom around. But now my sisters are both moms and I see them and I feel like I’m missing out. But having pocd and hocd has definitely made me feel like it’s completely out of the question. I even made sure my fiancé knew that I didn’t want children/ feel like I can’t have them for fear of hurting them or passing on mental health issues. I was abused growing up and one of my old therapists told me that “people who are abused can become abusers”. That is something that I am not willing to risk. And even though I feel set on that choice, my brain still tells me that I’m missing out. So I’m constantly questioning if I truly feel like I don’t want them or if ocd is convincing me I don’t. Ugh. It’s just so frustrating.
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I’m feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. I’m 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(we’re just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldn’t be able to return back at night, also it’s either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldn’t let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like I’m stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know it’s hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I’m a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So that’s it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress she’s carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk it’s hard (also I feel like I shouldn’t be saying this cause it’s all my fault) 🫤
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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