Chellie
- Date posted
- 6y
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- Date posted
- 6y
Omg I hope this gets bettee
ChellieChellie
- Date posted
- 6y
Thank you guys :(
catpantscatpants
- Date posted
- 6y
This is abusive behaviour and is 100 percent not your fault in any way. If your father isn’t coping with your struggles, it is his responsibility to get help he needs and taking it out on you is awful behaviour. Do you have any trusted adults you can speak to about this outside of your family ?
catpantscatpants
- Date posted
- 6y
Just remember that they CHOOSE to treat you the way they do, and it is not your fault how they choose to respond, that is entirely on them. Maybe you are a handful sometimes, but you don’t deserve that kind of treatment from your own parents. You’re struggling and you need support and not abuse. You wouldn’t treat a child suffering from a physical disability the way they treat you. It’s NO different. You are worthy and you are needed and you are not the sum of how your parents treat you. Hold in there. I’m so sorry you’re in such awful position, but you aren’t alone.
ChellieChellie
- Date posted
- 6y
I hope so. I get worse every day and I want to die more and more. I feel worthless and my life feels the same way. My willpower is drained from this disease. I'm so tired...
nunununu
- Date posted
- 6y
Be strong you can beat your ocd
nunununu
- Date posted
- 6y
Don't lose hope you are not alone we all are there
CatladyCatlady
- Date posted
- 6y
I’m so sorry to hear this. Keep fighting❤️
ChellieChellie
- Date posted
- 6y
They always pick their side, honestly, I mean I'm the crazy one who washes her hands 100 times after all. They enable me a lot (I know its bad but its hard to break this patterns after almost 3 years... I wanna but they get mad at me when I have panic attacks, not a great incentive) and people feel bad for them that they have a kid like me it seems like. I feel completely and utterly alone. It also doesn't help that the workers never saw their breakdowns but they have seen mine. I get that they're tired, but do they really need to threaten to kick me out every time my OCD makes me freak out and cry... :(
ChellieChellie
- Date posted
- 6y
I asked them that too, if I was in a wheelchair if they'd do this to me too, they told me it was different. They enable me for years and 3 weeks before treatment they stop, it almost feels like they want me to lose my mind :(
Infinite1010Infinite1010
- Date posted
- 6y
Chellie, just hang in there. I can understand how painful hearing that from your parents can be. I have had family members straight up try and disown me because of how much I (unintentionally) drained them. Just hang in there. I want you to live! We all here want you to live! You can get better! Trust me! It just takes time and the right strategies, but I promise you, it is shining very brightly outside if this dark cave we are in, and one day, we will make it out and will finally enjoy the sunshine and freedom that is rightfully ours!
Infinite1010Infinite1010
- Date posted
- 6y
Chellie, I feel the same way... But, just know, someone out there (me) cares about you. Even though that might not mean much, because we don't know each other. I have you in my thoughts. I will add there is new hope on the horizon. New medicications that work different from all the other meds and new methode are on the horizon. I know that in your country that perhaps this mental illness isn't seen as super serious, but here in my country (US) it is seen as serious and there are many organizations working hard day and night to find ways to put this disease in the history books. If we can just tough it out just a bit longer, we will perhaps be able to live full, productive, and meaningful lives!
ChellieChellie
- Date posted
- 6y
Thank you so much you are such a sweetheart. Could you check out my latest post? I could use some help if you are ok with that
Infinite1010Infinite1010
- Date posted
- 6y
@Chellie Can you please read my clarifications to what I said on your other post? Please?
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- 24w
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- Date posted
- 22w
I feel so humiliated
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Melina_:3
- Date posted
- 8w
Feeling Lonely Today
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