person1
- Date posted
- 5y
ReptileReptile
- Date posted
- 5y
It’s simple really. HOCD is a subtype of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, and being gay is wanting and seeking out romantic or sexual relationships with the same sex exclusively.
ReptileReptile
- Date posted
- 5y
Yeah I get it, I have it as well so I know how you feel. But what do you want? What do you want to come home to? Don’t let your mind pick, make yourself pick. Your mind will tell you different than what you truly want if you have OCD. Ask yourself these basic questions, and that’s your answer. But of course OCD will make you doubt that answer, but don’t let the doubt fool you. Don’t let the OCD take over.
andrewt_andrewt_
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
I think this is the wrong question to be asking. I think the right one would be “ how do I accept the possibility of being gay ? “. That’s going to get under the fear and turn it into something that is no longer a fear. Because once this question is answered , you’ll move onto something similar or something completely different. I’m sure you already know this but just wanted to say it just Incase. You could do things like talk to gay people or go to a gay club ( obviously not to do anything , just to see that they’re normal people and can live fun lives too and it would be the same with you ). Ask yourself this ; would you rather live a life full of worrying about whether or not you’re gay or accepting it as a possibility and learning to be okay with it and living a happy life in the process ? The latter is totally possible man. You got it , we’re all here for you ????
person1person1
- Date posted
- 5y
Ok. I just can’t tell if I am gay, or I’ve just let the ocd take over. I have other forms of ocd, but this is one that I’ve been dealing with for the longest time.
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- Date posted
- 21w
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- Date posted
- 15w
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- Date posted
- 12w
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