Hey everyone so I’ve been just having a bad day already! I feel so detached from myself that I don’t even know who I am. Feels like someone else is in control of me bad dpdr. Now I’m having bad intrusive thoughts because I don’t feel like myself like I’m out of control. I haven’t been able to eat or get any sleep. I’m so down idk what to do anymore.
I had that a couple days ago for about a month it sucked. Stay strong it’s just your OCD.
@Brooke cookie Thank you for this. It’s like in my mind I understand it’s only ocd but it feels so real when you’re in it. I also have children so it’s so bad when I can barely take care of them because I’m so stuck in my head. I will make it through this I have faith!
I'm sorry you are going through it today! I am as well today and being home with my husband has helped. Is there anyone you are close with that you can reach out to? Do you have a therapist or psychiatrist yet that you can reach out to? Sending you lots of positivity peace and hope. You are not your thoughts! They don't define who you are deep in your core.
@Chocolate I just got a therapist I start seeing on Monday. Thank you so much for the kind words I appreciate it a lot! Sending you love and peace as well ❤️
I know exactly how this feels and it's the most terrifying, debilitating feeling. I've been feeling completely out of control and lost within myself too. I haven't been able to eat either. Very tiny things, like even just looking at sunshine outside, makes me feel a little connected with my core self that's underneath all the ocd. Writing poems to express the feeling may not help me in the moment, but I feel some kind of mild satisfaction knowing I could still create something out of this feeling. I'm really sorry you're feeling this way :( it really is so scary. I also take solace in knowing others feel the same way, and that it's not just a YOU thing. I wish i'd known that when i first started having that feeling, but thank god I do know that now ♥️ Have the bare minimum of food and drink (gummies, grapes, water, etc) and remember: YOU know that mental peace is still possible 🫂 i believe in you!
@Jersey Jayne Yes I totally agree it feels so much better knowing that at least you’re not alone in this situation. I know we’re all going to get through this, it just feels impossible when you’re so deep in it. I appreciate you commenting and being kind. We got this!
(HELP PLEASE) So my depersonalization/derealization has gotten so bad I’m actually scared for my life and I don’t know if I’m ever going to go back to normal I’m freaking out about it. I feel so unreal and vision is so blurry, I feel like I can go insane any second and that feeling is causing me so MUCH anxiety. I don’t know what to do anymore guys, this is a HORRIBLE theme I’m having because it’s not just mental, it’s physical, I feel so many ugly symptoms because of the derealization! Help someone please!
I woke up today terrified cause I didn’t feel connected to my body. I looked in the mirror and thought I was watching someone else and that was scary. Feeling depersonalized fueled my intrusive thoughts. Like “what if I’m going crazy”, “what if I have shifted personalities” or “what if I’m bipolar.” The fear of turning crazy also fueled the intrusive thoughts of me acting mentally crazed or like a child. These intrusive thoughts also tainted me into believing that everything I did was something a mentally crazed person would do. Now I have become more hyper aware of how I feel when I do simple things. This also fueled my OCD subtypes like harm/ suicidal because I think that if I’m not connected to my body then I have no control or might do irrational things. This feeling of not being connected to yourself is really scary and I hate the feeling. How do I get connected with myself again.
As the title states, my intrusive thought of "being in a dream" when I'm conscious is horrible tonight. Constant need of reassurance, trying to find any distraction. I can't get this thought out of my head no matter what I do. It's on the top of my thinking list 24/7 no matter what I try. Im feeling bad derealization and it makes me want to wish I didn't exist..I was fine before my panic attack from an ocular migraine (losing my eyesight is my biggest fear)...but now I'm not living...I'm just surviving...I'm very depressed...I haven't eaten today and had to remind myself to take a shower, brush my teeth, and drink water. I have a therapy session on here tomorrow...I'm praying so hard that I get answers and ways to get rid of this stupid thought that appeared out of nowhere....
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