Hey y’all, does anyone else fear that the world is a simulation / nothing and no one is real? When my OCD flares up, I feel like I am being controlled / watched, like I’m on the Truman Show, and that everyone around me is a robot / simulation? It can be incredibly distressing and I’ve spent HOURS performing compulsions. At school, work, when trying to fall asleep.
I often feel disconnected from my soul/conscience. I don't really feel like I am in control and have freewill. I feel like I am playing a character and on autopilot to fulfill what needs to be done as this character. I also then consider how pathetic I am because the character I am fulfilling is so insignificant. I ruminate over how there are people out there with talent living as artists, people who are smart and dedicated who are doctors/lawyers, I'll even think about how many people go to the subway system in NYC and have routine common jobs (someone I currently can't do because I rarely leave my house.) I think about how other people function and I think my placement in the world is so dumb and pointless compared to others. Am I supposed to be more? Would I be without the OCD? Who could I be? But to become more feels like an impossible task.
oh yes i struggle with this too. i will have thoughts like everything is just in my imagination and it’s super scary. i also struggle with dpdr so i feel really dissociated sometimes and i just think of the nature of reality. sometimes its weird to think that everyone is just normal people just like me
@mbfaraoni25 it’s horrible, even had a panic over it once :( i hope you find relief and peace soon. 🩷
@ameliahope thank you, you too love🩷
@mbfaraoni25 I have exactly the same. Solipsism OCD and even when I try to treat it like OCD my brain is why are listening to your therapist when she is just your imagination… Ugh 😤 I have OCD for 8 years now and I had many different theme. By far this is the worst… 🥲
Does anyone have similar thoughts or experiences. My ocd has been really bad for around 3 years but recently around 3 months ago I realised that I started doubting everyone in my life no matter how good they are to me even my parents. Iv been feeling as if everyone is a robot hard to explain but I feel as if no one really exists and that I’m in a simulation and is the only person who realises it and that everyone I know is just waiting to get the opportunity to fk me over. When I see my self in the mirror I look behind me thinking someone is next to me only to realise that it was my reflection. I don’t know whether this is ocd or not anymore especially the fact that my mum is schizophrenic and bipolar anyone know what these symptoms could be?
I'm currently experiencing really bad Existential OCD and I'm looking for ways to practice ERP for it. My intrusive thoughts are "What if life isn't real" What if you don't really exist" "What if your family is just imagined" "What if it's all pointless" "What if life is just a dream". I'm horrified of believing these thoughts and I'm afraid ERP will convince me that theyre they're true. I'm reaching out in hopes of tips and possible ideas and scripts for my OCD. Thank you.
Do people with existential ocd have this terrifying fear that people aren’t real and then they start to feel detached or dissociate only making it worse??? Along with this, do you fear that even though people can relate to you, what if that’s what you’re supposed to hear to help you move on, but really what your fearing is true??? I feel like I’m going insane. I sometimes get these questions, but they go away within minutes. However, these have been staying because I started asking the question “well if people aren’t real then hurt them”. I have other things ruminating in my head, but they’re either too hard to explain or will literally make me sound like I’m going crazy.
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