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So. These are the joys of a small town
I’ve been feeling really down recently as the guy I like a lot left me and told me a bunch of basically lies to make me feel better then go and sleep with a girl who was engaged 3 days ago broke up with her fiancé/boyfriend 2 days ago to then sleep with him. I went out last night and the boyfriend was on bar. Now there’s rumours he’s not a nice guy, but there’s also rumours she’s a really horrible fucjing person. They live together and everything. They were sleeping together in their bed, they only broke up a few days ago. This made me feel horrendous, as someone who would’ve done anything for the boy, who literally told him how much he means to her, he left me to go and just sleep around when he said to my face that’s not what he was going to do. I know it’s none of my business anymore, but the disrespect hurts, especially when everyone knows you. So I was sat in my feels and one of the men I know walks up to me and can see on my face I’m devastated. I say to him, “I don’t really have any say like we aren’t together” and he goes “yeah but he knows your feelings, he knows he hurt you and that’s not okay” and another one of my friends said “he lead you on for ages, telling you all these lies and playing with you to get what he wants and then fuck kff to her, you’re allowed to be upset” but I’m sat here thinking do I actually have any say in the matter. We were seeing one another before I left for travelling, I’ve come back and he’s completely shifted to this horrible person. He’s got everyone so angry, and so upset. For me it’s the way he lied, straight to my face “I’m not seeing anyone else hand on heart, I don’t want to I need to be single” then goes on a date the day after and then again 4 days later where he sleeps with her, and everyone knows. I had my friend tell me I’m golden like I deserve better than him and that he’s not worth my time which is so true and I’m done now. But knowing someone loves you, knowing someone has strong feelings for you, and to tell you about this girl who’s “just a friend” and then to sleep with her days after you have your final goodbye meeting where he says that he’s focusing on himself and that it wasn’t me he just can’t see anyone at the moment, that he’s realised he needs to just grow, to then go and do that? I have the right to feel a bit upset about it, right? To have everyone in the pub tell you what he’s getting up to, while you’re there thinking about how he once treated you, thinking I’m not worth anything that I’m not even attractive. I know we’re single and honestly that’s fine I can’t tell u who you can and can’t sleep with, but there was zero respect for anyone when he made this decision. It’s a very small town, for months I played the will we won’t we game, while I was away I didn’t know what I was coming back to and it took him and month to meet up and have the closure chat, after a half arsed discussion on text about what’s been going on, where he barely said anything but “I need to focus on myself”. Lies, you just want to fuck around and if you knew that, then you shouldn’t have been exclusive with me in the first place