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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
How did SOOCD start
Can SOOCD start from a feeling of false attraction? Feeling like I’m the only one whose started this way making me think I’m in denial :( another tough day of rumination!
Can SOOCD start from a feeling of false attraction? Feeling like I’m the only one whose started this way making me think I’m in denial :( another tough day of rumination!
I just want to tell you that it gets better!I suffered from HOCD and I got better after like 4 years but it was worth it!Just try to accept the thoughts, accept that it might be true and you’ll see!Now I am free (even though now I struggle with another subtype) but this one is all clear!Wishing you luck
I think it can…Mine started when I was younger, i can’t remember exactly what triggered it but i was already suffering with OCD in other forms, my SOOCD came back a couple of months ago as my OCD came back a few months prior to this but it was harm ocd and other forms. I then seen Brittany Spaers on my phone and got a thought ‘i think shes fit’ which totally made my anxiety through the roof and I was very discusted and then it all of a sudden hit me I used to suffer with this type of OCD and all the memories and thoughts of my past SOOCD came back
@Sandyforest76 My story is pretty similar! This is my first time experiencing SOOCD though. A girl I follow on social media triggered mine. Her name is Alix Earle and I followed her for a couple of years before I was randomly triggered by her video one day and since then have been battling
@LV4523 Honestly my ocd tried to tell me the same thing.. “it started again with a false attraction thought so it must be true”. So many people will have these intrusive thoughts; my therapist actually went through some intrusive thoughts that Non OCD sufferers get and honestly it shocked me how high the percentages were/ what the thoughts were . Just shows that everyone gets these but non OCD sufferers do not put any meaning onto them or get distressed over them. They may think oh why did i get that but they will not obsess over it like we do
I’ve been dealing with SOOCD for over a year now, and I have been having a very hard day today. I feel like I just need someone to talk too, my whole life I’ve always had girl crushes and always wanted to be romantic with women . Ever since I posted this picture on instagram and one person said I looked “zesty” in it , which is when I started obsessing about being gay . I feel like I put so much meaning to these thoughts where now I’m always checking how I feeling around men. I had a really bad porn addiction for a long time and bad anxiety which fucked up my sex drive. I feel like I doubt if I’m attracted to women when I know I am , but the doubt is so overbearing where I start to believe it . I never was interested in men sexually, and my ocd makes me feel like I like the thoughts even though I feel no pleasure out of it. I feel like I lost who I am as a person . It feels like I don’t even know what my sexuality is and it’s really upsetting to me . I meant this girl the other day and she is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met and I just feel like ocd is getting in the way😭😭😭 please any advice or comments
SO-OCD is so confusing because deep down I know that I’m heterosexual, I was always attracted to men, wanted to be with men and had crushes on men. I know I’m not sexually or romantically attracted to women. The logical part of my mind knows that. But false attraction makes it so stressing because if that’s the truth than why am I feeling the exact opposite now? Does anyone else have a similar experience?
I’ve been meaning to ask this question, I’ve been diagnosed with SOOCD last year in November. But I had been struggling with SOOCD for around two years at that time before the diagnosis. Yet I still doubt the diagnosis almost every day. I didn’t continue therapy because I could t afford it. The anxiety symptoms or lower now and sometimes istimewa feels very meh like I don’t even want to answer the questions in my mind and other times it will implode and I’ll cry and feel so much pain in my heart. I cried the other night when I was watching on of chrissie Hodges’ videos. Because I felt so confused I can’t tell what’s real from time to time. I also wanted to ask if it’s normal to see pictures of men like really hot men and feel uncomfortable because I feel pressured to look and if I don’t look and check em out even when I don’t feel like it, I’d feel like I’m in denial and it’s exhausting and I tend to give up on responding to it and I’ll just feel like I’m hiding something and it’ll feel so uncomfortable. And then other times I’ll see a guy and turned on but I’ll still feel anxious and uncomfortable abit because of the thoughts. I’m straight and I do love men my fear is that I’m secretly bi because of the porn and the previous fantasizing I did when I was a teen. I’m 21 rn. It’s hard for me everyday I feel like I’m stuff acting in these negative emotions and like I just can’t breathe and be myself by solely trusting in myself. Because there’s constant doubt. And I’m a girl btw
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