Can SOOCD start from a feeling of false attraction? Feeling like I’m the only one whose started this way making me think I’m in denial :( another tough day of rumination!
I just want to tell you that it gets better!I suffered from HOCD and I got better after like 4 years but it was worth it!Just try to accept the thoughts, accept that it might be true and you’ll see!Now I am free (even though now I struggle with another subtype) but this one is all clear!Wishing you luck
I think it can…Mine started when I was younger, i can’t remember exactly what triggered it but i was already suffering with OCD in other forms, my SOOCD came back a couple of months ago as my OCD came back a few months prior to this but it was harm ocd and other forms. I then seen Brittany Spaers on my phone and got a thought ‘i think shes fit’ which totally made my anxiety through the roof and I was very discusted and then it all of a sudden hit me I used to suffer with this type of OCD and all the memories and thoughts of my past SOOCD came back
@Sandyforest76 My story is pretty similar! This is my first time experiencing SOOCD though. A girl I follow on social media triggered mine. Her name is Alix Earle and I followed her for a couple of years before I was randomly triggered by her video one day and since then have been battling
@LV4523 Honestly my ocd tried to tell me the same thing.. “it started again with a false attraction thought so it must be true”. So many people will have these intrusive thoughts; my therapist actually went through some intrusive thoughts that Non OCD sufferers get and honestly it shocked me how high the percentages were/ what the thoughts were . Just shows that everyone gets these but non OCD sufferers do not put any meaning onto them or get distressed over them. They may think oh why did i get that but they will not obsess over it like we do
Im a 21 year old female in a straight relationship with the best guy a girl could ever ask for. About 2 months ago, I went to get coffee with a friend and as I dropped her off, I got a “weird” vibe from her and the look she gave me which lead to the thought of “should I kiss her”….Ive never had a thought like that before and I never have ever wanted to kiss another girl. I have also never had a desire to be with another girl (sexually or romantically). Now though, I have had one other experience of being with a different friend going to get lunch and it felt weird. Ever since then I have been on google non stop with hundreds of different searches, questioning if im lying to myself of my boyfriend, wondering about my past relationships even though Ive only dated boys, been attracted to boys, crushed on boys, etc… boy crazy! Reading on other forums has been a big thing too or doing quizzes. I believe its SO-OCD but im so scared that what if its not. I am in therapy and actually had two weeks of not even thinking about it or googling it until yesterday. I dont know what to do.
As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?
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