Can SOOCD start from a feeling of false attraction? Feeling like I’m the only one whose started this way making me think I’m in denial :( another tough day of rumination!
I just want to tell you that it gets better!I suffered from HOCD and I got better after like 4 years but it was worth it!Just try to accept the thoughts, accept that it might be true and you’ll see!Now I am free (even though now I struggle with another subtype) but this one is all clear!Wishing you luck
I think it can…Mine started when I was younger, i can’t remember exactly what triggered it but i was already suffering with OCD in other forms, my SOOCD came back a couple of months ago as my OCD came back a few months prior to this but it was harm ocd and other forms. I then seen Brittany Spaers on my phone and got a thought ‘i think shes fit’ which totally made my anxiety through the roof and I was very discusted and then it all of a sudden hit me I used to suffer with this type of OCD and all the memories and thoughts of my past SOOCD came back
@Sandyforest76 My story is pretty similar! This is my first time experiencing SOOCD though. A girl I follow on social media triggered mine. Her name is Alix Earle and I followed her for a couple of years before I was randomly triggered by her video one day and since then have been battling
@LV4523 Honestly my ocd tried to tell me the same thing.. “it started again with a false attraction thought so it must be true”. So many people will have these intrusive thoughts; my therapist actually went through some intrusive thoughts that Non OCD sufferers get and honestly it shocked me how high the percentages were/ what the thoughts were . Just shows that everyone gets these but non OCD sufferers do not put any meaning onto them or get distressed over them. They may think oh why did i get that but they will not obsess over it like we do
Anyone who has had sexual orientation OCD since the “dating age” (middle school/high school)— how did you ever determine your sexuality? I don’t want reassurance because I understand our experiences may be different. I’m just curious— did you try boys and girls? Did you just find your person and know? I started having SOOCD at age 16 and I’m now 28. OCD has ruined my ability to date more than anything else. I feel like it stole my chance at love. I’ve had three long-term situationships with men. I adored them but they were also toxic because I think I subconsciously didn’t believe I deserved better. I felt that if I knew the relationship wouldn’t work because of fundamental differences, at least it was okay that I couldn’t fully be present in the relationship. Not sure if this makes sense, but I’m just grieving that part of my life I missed out on.
How can you tell if it’s SOOCD, being in denial or sexual orientation fluid change? I really really hope it’s just SOOCD but I suffer so much from the loss of attraction to opposite gender and severe‘false’ attraction to same gender. It makes me feel sick and want to cry every time I have false attractions. I find it so difficult I feel my entire life has flipped and been destroyed.
I’ve been dealing with SOOCD for over a year now, and I have been having a very hard day today. I feel like I just need someone to talk too, my whole life I’ve always had girl crushes and always wanted to be romantic with women . Ever since I posted this picture on instagram and one person said I looked “zesty” in it , which is when I started obsessing about being gay . I feel like I put so much meaning to these thoughts where now I’m always checking how I feeling around men. I had a really bad porn addiction for a long time and bad anxiety which fucked up my sex drive. I feel like I doubt if I’m attracted to women when I know I am , but the doubt is so overbearing where I start to believe it . I never was interested in men sexually, and my ocd makes me feel like I like the thoughts even though I feel no pleasure out of it. I feel like I lost who I am as a person . It feels like I don’t even know what my sexuality is and it’s really upsetting to me . I meant this girl the other day and she is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met and I just feel like ocd is getting in the way😭😭😭 please any advice or comments
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