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I can relate to this im so exhausted. I dont know if I already am but just suppressing it.
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Good to know my life is gonna be like dis forever?? damn wtf did i get myself into
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- OCD Conqueror
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You’re gonna have to accept that it’s a possibility so you get bored of worrying about it so much !! Just know that recovery is possible , as your mind and brain can be trained to develop a more positive thinking pattern which would make the anxiety way less strong. Think of it this way , if you can go from feeling normal to horrible at one specific point in time ( The very beginning of your OCD journey ) then you can work towards going back to normal as long as you don’t put pressure on yourself and change your thinking process.
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I have been struggling with common situation for 25 years. It's a very difficult condition and very torturing
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Ik you think that right now and so do I but im hoping eventually it will get better.
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I dont want this i want it gone removed deleted and forgotten i dont want it on and off i dont wanr ir 25 years i fucking cant believe that its not able to just en cured. This shit got me so mad because it screws my brain up entirely and im freaking done and why does this have to make life sooo damn hard. I dont want to be married and have children while having hocd. Once that was my biggest dream but if its with hocd i dont want none of it because its not the real me who is raising my children and its not the real me whose loving my husband. Im not me when hocd is present
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@hocdgirlsummer. I know you don’t want that. I suffered in silence for a long time from 18-27 with those 3 versions of OCD. I take medication now and have since but now I really need to do ERP.
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@kent79. How old are you. I’ve been dealing with it off and on for 20 years since age 18. I’m married with 2 kids so that always scares me too. I dealt with POCD and Harm OCD as well.
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@BP1982 With all of the doubts from hocd how did you get to the point where you were confident enough to marry your wife? I'm looking to move in with my boyfriend, but I have intrusive thoughts that keep saying that I'm gay or that I don't really love him. I know they're not true, but they're super terrifying.
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@hateocd123 It was hard. Like I said though the thoughts have waxed and waned over the years. It’s been a lot harder recently. Maybe because of stress with the new baby, but my most recent trigger was watching Bohemian Rhapsody for some reason. I don’t really have any suggestions on what to tell you about moving in with your boyfriend. https://www.ocdbaltimore.com/hocd-sexual-orientation-ocd-denial/ This article is very informative though.
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@BP1982 I am forty years old
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I won’t explain this again if you’ve been or going through it you know what I’m talking about. I felt good about women about an hour ago and now I’m worrying again I’m anxious and the groinals are back and it’s so annoying because I can’t study. And honestly I’m so sick and tired of this. I’ve been a girl crazy my whole life and my mind randomly decides “well what if you are gay” like bro. I’ve never seen a guy that way and in general IT WAS NEVER SOMETHING I THOUGHT ABOUT OR ASSOCIATED MYSELF WITH. IVE NEVER FELT ANYTHING TOWARDS A MAN AND NOW IT FEELS LIKE IT RANDOMLY FLIPPED. I CANT DO THIS BRO. WHY WOULD THIS HAPPEN IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH INSECURITIES ALREADY AND MY ATTRACTION WAS THE ONLY REAL THING I HAD LEFT AND NOW THIS. HOW MUCH DO YOU HATE ME GOD.
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I had a bad rumination spiral yesterday and went to bed hoping I’d start over in the morning. I was wrong. I had dreams about liking women and not being attracted to men anymore and my entire body has been in a state of anxiety since. I genuinely feel like I’m gay and just need to accept it. I have this urge to accept it. Maybe if I do I’ll get some sort of relief because this feeling is awful. I feel like my brain is telling me that I’ll get relief if I just accept it and come out. The intrusive thoughts don’t even seem to be around sexual images anymore, just to come out.
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i have had intense thoughts and fears about being gay today and i have been sick to my stomach. it just stopped and now im scared im accepting it and im not freaking out. i feel like im okay with it. I AM NOT OKAY WITH BEING GAY.
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