I’m a straight guy and I’ve been having HOCD for 6 months now. But I first had disease Ocd possibility of getting infected with HIV creeped me out and made me anxious I would google symptoms and get myself depress then the HOCD demon started it was so intense at first I think I’m getting better, I can live be happy and even do my school work and when I do erp I’m not anxious sometimes but when I’m not my mind reminds me as to why I’m not thinking about same sex adultly then I go back to being annoyed and I don’t have these thoughts as often as I used to but when I don’t I’m not happy my heart is heavy. This annoys me so much because I can almost feel as if I’m close to being cured but I don’t feel like I’m close at the same time. Now I’m anxious of getting intimate with girls again because it feels more like compilations than pleasure and before all of this I used to enjoy and sleep with different women all the time this just makes me sick and sorry for the long message any suggestions?

Feels more like compulsions*

HOCD is a monster man (as I assume all OCD forms are). My OCD has taken many turns in the past 7 years, the main one for me now that I work with/try to manage is HOCD. I am also a straight male, and dude, I feel your pain haha. But, what I’ve come to realize through studying our unique disease that is both a blessing and a curse, and with help from a specialist, is that content is irrelevant man. OCD for me has latched onto so much and it will continue to go after anything I care most about in life. I know it never “completely” goes away. It’s the way our minds are built. Embrace it man as hard as that may sound. Get to know your mind and it won’t be so scary forever. The future is bright guy. ✊? real talk

Thank you my Guy it gets so dark sometimes man and it feels real sometimes and you feel like you previous love life is just meaning less but I’m taking control of my life any ERP techniques you can recommend or any techniques in general they aren’t a lot of Specialists who deal with OCD in my area especially this type of OCD

Definitely man✊? when I first tackled HOCD and how I saw the best results was imaginational exposure therapy where I would create a worst/feared situation on paper and read it and let it come and go. Sit with the thoughts. Face it. I want to make sure you understand however that I consider this a very advanced form of OCD therapy. But I believe when you are ready, it can be one of the strongest forms of therapy with great results. Does OCD effect you in any other ways? Ones that are less debilitating than HOCD but still bother you? If so, learn to manage those first with exposure, and work up to what bothers you the most. I hope that helps bro?all in

I do that sometimes bro but I get bored after a while well some days it’s even hard to focus on the idea not that I’m trying to but because my mind is just bored even before I start some days I do it and I’m so nervous and get panic attacks ? what’s crazy about this is that you seek reassurance, God and everything else. How are you doing now? When people give out positive results makes me happy and gives me the courage to keep on going...

It’s just Heath OCd that bothers me sometimes but only when I see blood and stuff like that that’s what triggers it because now I’m in a relationship and I trust my partner so she doesn’t trigger it at all

Glad I can show you that you CAN tackle this stuff bro. And when you clear some space, the feeling is freakin unreal! All of a sudden you tap into areas of your brain that help you succeed at work, home, hobbies etc. I’ve done it. Have faith. It’s back for me right now because my girlfriend recently broke up with me after 5 years. But I know how OCD is now. This is how I fight/cope with change. I will return. I know it. So keep grindin, roll with the punches, and put the work in when your in a comfort zone and you will see what I mean. God Bless ?