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With me bro I feel better when I’m with her and the thoughts come when she’s gone if I spend the whole day with her I’ll probably have these thoughts 3 times but without her is something else
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When I'm chilling at home with my boyfriend, everything feels perfect and I'm calm. But if I'm out in public with him or I'm by myself, the thoughts come back to haunt me.
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This is so hard to beat ? I put up my worries can you guys comment if you have any advice
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During my first wave of HOCD, I accepted it for what it was. I said "okay, I'm gay, now what" I was uncomfortable for a bit and then the feeling passed. It was like a weight lifted off of my shoulders, I felt like myself again. For like a day ? I was doing a good job at letting the thought pass through my head all day, until I gave in and actually engaged with it. I relapsed. And now I'm back to square one ? so try accepting it and try your very best to not engage with the thought or else you'll end up like me ?
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One advice is to not watch porn either straight to make sure you still aroused by women and gay porn to make sure you not aroused by men and to not have sex when you in this state because it will only give you temporarily relief work on yourself and your issues without porn and sex, I personally listen to music it’s been great therapy I started jogging this week and watched Devon frankilns prayer for mentally ill people and I’ve never felt this better in a while although I don’t want to jinx my progress but Don’t give up keep on meditating doing self ERP if you can’t afford to go to the psychologist we got this ?
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I would appreciate eix
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@ all y’all above^^^ yeah when I’m with her I feel great and I forget about the worrying but we go to different school so rn I’m struggling and ruminating all day but when I’m with her I’m so happy
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I’ve been living with this for 6 months now but before the HOCD I had health OCD sorry to say this but I used to have sex with different women and on day my ex roommate said I will get sick then from that point on I had the ocd for a year but this year it got replaced by HOCD it was so intense at first really intense I would literally have sex with different women and having Gay people all over campus and even at my residence didn’t help at all even now I gay dude just passed and I got a bit anxious but I don’t give into compulsions anymore fast forward to now I’m not thinking about it as much as I used to not as anxious even though some days are really bad but I know how to snap out of it however I’m not happy I’m scared I’ll go back to that dark place because now I can laugh with friends go to clubs and go on with my day but there’s a deep voice in my head that keeps on hindering my recovery and I’ve been using my girlfriend as a compulsion ? but sleeping with her is not that bad but we have been cutting down on sex and it’s been 3 weeks since I had it and now I’m so scared of having sex again although I do feel like having It I’m at a stage where I feel like I’m okay but my mind and heart tell me I’m not any suggestions for recovering from this stage?
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And sorry for the long message
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And twitter has a lot of porn which didn’t help in the beginning but this week there was gay porn on my wall some girl retweeted it or something I looked and laughed and said nah this ain’t my kind of Steeze and went on with my day but before I slept the video kept on playing inside my head this is just too much but I will not give up
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I've been dealing with HOCD and feel so damn hopeless sometimes, but other times I feel hopeful. It's such an inconsistent progress that makes you lose hope, but just always remember the person you used to be before OCD hit. It helps me to remember so that I don't entirely lose myself in my thoughts
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Who else feels completely fine when they are drunk and bad when they are sober
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Me i feel totally normal when I'm drunk and then hocd is bad when I'm sober it sucks but it lead me to become a heavy drinker so don't get sucked into that
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When I was drunk Id have sex with women and it would be great then it would be so hard to have sex sober because of all the intrusive thoughts and anxiety
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So i play in a band, and we were having practice, and my girlfriend was there listening to us, then this girl around our age walks in, and my head tells me to cheat on my girlfriend with her. I know i would never do such a thing. And it bothered me for days. And i ended up telling my girlfriend, and tried to explain my ocd. It hurt her and she believes that the instrusive thoughts, are my thoughts so in that, i must feel something behind them. And she feels hurt because i explained to her the obsessive part of ocd and how this thought wouldnt leave my head. And she got upset knowing that i was constantly thinking about cheating on her. I cant help but feel its all my fault. And now that she doesnt understand i feel really guilty for my thoughts and they are coming more often and worse. When i was fine for months, but my ocd always acts up right as i get in relationships, then i usually tell my spouse and tell them i cant feel guilt for my thoughts or they will get worse. And they usually just accepted it and it was easy. But with her it seems she just cant seem to understand, ive tried to explain it to her countless times, she isnt willing to do research with me to help better understand it or anything. Maybe for my first ocd issue telling her that wasnt the best idea.
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i feel so bad for posting here, idk what i wamt i have so many thoughts abt the feelings i have for my bf im scared my thughts are true or that they will be true and i feel bad for feeling amd thinking this way i such a bad girlfriend, i am scared that i like other people just because i look at them or talk to them normally and i feel like a liar what cam i do to stop feeling like this i am scared
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I’ve been struggling with something that’s been really overwhelming, and I’m hoping to get some perspective from others here. I feel a lot of guilt about it, and I’m not sure if I’m alone in this experience. Lately, I’ve found myself daydreaming about romantic situations or getting caught up in ‘what if’ scenarios—where I wonder if I could develop feelings for someone else, or if someone develops feelings for me. The thing is, I’m in a relationship that I love, and I don’t want to act on these thoughts at all. What makes it even harder is that these thoughts often hyperfixate on one specific friend, and sometimes they feel entertaining or give me a dopamine rush. But then, of course, I feel even more guilty because it makes me feel like I’m betraying my boyfriend. These thoughts usually happen when I’m upset and looking for comfort, but then they morph into romantic scenarios, which makes me feel so disloyal. I’m constantly going back and forth between feeling curious or entertained by the thoughts and then feeling horrible for even allowing them to happen in the first place. I keep confessing these thoughts to my boyfriend, and he tries to be understanding. He’s just never been the type to daydream, so he doesn’t know if this is something other people experience or if it’s just me. I feel like such an awful girlfriend. Has anyone else dealt with something like this?
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