Bee Charlotte
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- 5y
hateocd123hateocd123
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- 5y
Yes, that was my last major obsession. I was afraid I had herpes (I don't) and convinced myself that it was absolutely true. The obsession went away when I told myself that it was manageable and not the end of the world if I did have it.
jamesriverjamesriver
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- 5y
This is EXACTLY my fear. Knowing that even if I did... It's totally liveable. I just think it's one of those things that scares me so much because I have little control over it. Do you feel that way too?
Bee CharlotteBee Charlotte
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- 5y
Yes - I can rationalise the fact that it’s rarely actually a big deal if you do have it, but it’s something about the fact that it it’s not curable and you may never know you have it that really frightens me (even though I know somebody with herpes and it really isn’t an issue for them). I just want to have one day where I’m not scanning my body for symptoms and googling herpes!!!
jamesriverjamesriver
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- 5y
I completely relate. It's so tiring. My sister actually has it and she lives a totally normal life it barely effects her at all. And even with all that I still freak out about it nonstop. I have a hard time dealing with the uncertainty.
trashyocdtrashyocd
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- 5y
I am so glad I found this chat. I have been going through a 3 week episode completely panicking that I have herpes. I have extremely sensitive skin and had an allergic reaction to a new soap I was using. Well, I completely convinced myself it was herpes. (It’s subconsciously my biggest fear I think) my anxiety from fearing I had herpes got so bad I had to take 2 days off work because I worked myself up so bad. My gyno gave me the all clear, but I still don’t believe her. It’s completely exhausting thinking I have these diseases even when doctors have proved to me I don’t. I don’t know why I have this completely irrational fear of genital herpes. I have lived with cold sores my whole life and every time I get one it’s like the end of the world. I constantly wash my hands and cover the area so it doesn’t spread. I even wear latex gloves to wipe after using the restroom because of the fear the virus got on my hand and didn’t wash off.
trashyocdtrashyocd
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- 5y
My ocd is already so bad when I get regular cold sores I just fear what it would be like if I got genital sores
Bee CharlotteBee Charlotte
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- 5y
@trashyocd Honestly, this could have been me that wrote this! It’s my ultimate fear. I had exactly the same as you, a reaction to a washing powder and honestly I couldn’t get out of bed because of the stress of it, I thought about it every waking minute and lost half a stone in a week. Also continuously checking for sores, but I never see anything. I completely relate x
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
I had it I know how it feels I would literally goggle hIV symptoms and feel like I have it But it got diverted to HOCD and now it’s just worse even worse than before. ?
Bee CharlotteBee Charlotte
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- 5y
Thank you, it helps to know I’m not the only one. Sometimes it makes me feel like I might never have a day that is normal and not full of thoughts about herpes.
Bee CharlotteBee Charlotte
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- 5y
Yes, agreed. I think it is the uncertainty. I don’t understand how other people are going about their lives without worrying that suddenly they might find out they have herpes, or give it to someone else without knowing they have it themselves. It’s incredibly frustrating, I wish I had never heard of herpes!
hateocd123hateocd123
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- 5y
@?uwotm8? Woah. Wait a minute lol. Most people have hsv1. Hsv2 is the sexually transmitted one and can be spread even when you don't have an outbreak or sore present.
Bee CharlotteBee Charlotte
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- 5y
@hateocd123 Nearly had a freak out then ?
hateocd123hateocd123
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- 5y
@Bee Charlotte Either one is not really a big deal. I know a few people with HSV2 and they have it under wraps with medication. It's completely manageable and can't be spread if it's being treated.
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
@hateocd123 You don’t have to have hsv2 you can spread it to genitals even if it’s hsv1 - that’s why you can’t go down on someone when you have a coldsore
hateocd123hateocd123
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- 5y
@?uwotm8? Yes, you can spread Hsv1 to genitals, but it's not the classic genital herpes.
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