Struggling with conflicting identities due to OCD's convincing urges.

I’ve had this worry to, and kind of has been a reoccurring thought these past few weeks of just trying to find what thoughts are me and what are his. There’s this song called Tiny Dictator that got shared on her by Sophie May, that helped me quite a bit. We have this monster in our heads that has our voice and wants us to see his thoughts as our own. After all they’re in our head so they have to be our thoughts. The thing is though, that’s not true and just another lie OCD wants us to believe. We have OCD and we have this beast in our head that we sadly have to deal with. Working to accept and see thoughts that cause me distress as his versus mine has helped me quite a bit these past few weeks and maybe that could help you too.

This is literally me. I’ve been struggling with this for years now; it’s like I literally become another person and it feels like all my thoughts and feelings I’m experiencing in that moment are real. Anytime I’ve tried acting on these thoughts and feelings, I’ve snapped out of it, but it’s so convincing that I keep coming back to it time and time again.

I too am going through it and it confuses myself so much. But hearing that I am not the only one brings a relief to me. I’m glad we have the opportunity to express cause sometimes they are feeling the same and can actually feel like we can support each other. But yes I feel like I’m always fighting the moments when ocd is literally trying to make me feel like I’m the OCD half. It’s scary but when we actually ignore it the first time and move on. It’s the coolest feeling ever. It suck’s when you, let’s say, see a poster kid and your brain notices or gets fixated on a certain area then all of a sudden OCD is just waiting for you to make the first move into compulsing so he can make you recheck yourself or have a debate with it. Once we know more or less the “ahh this is the part where I should ignore it” moment and not think about it much. The better you’ll be able to handle it. I’ve been in and out of it. But I am in a way better spot than when I first started and diagnosed 2 years ago. We can do this!!

i totally get how tough and confusing it feels when ocd tries to blur the lines between who you are and the thoughts it throws at you. it's really brave of you to share this struggle and to keep fighting against those intrusive thoughts, even when they feel so convincing. remember, having these thoughts doesn't define your true self or your values. 💔 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called "unstuck?" when i was dealing with similar fears, this free ai ocd therapy tool (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my nocd therapist recommended really made a difference for me. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized step-by-step support tailored to your specific situation, helping you to navigate these complex feelings and differentiate between your true self and the ocd. it works just like an ocd therapist would, guiding you through the process without judgment. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3