- Date posted
- 1y
What happens during an episode of OCD?
For me it’s quick flashes of images and racing thoughts. It’s really scary and I feel alone
For me it’s quick flashes of images and racing thoughts. It’s really scary and I feel alone
I also see detailed images with my ocd. For example I see me shooting myself with blood and brain chunks on the floor. The images make me feel great distress , I even have cried from some of them. I have images of hurting others too , I hate the images but I have slowly learned they are just fear and do not mean anything. The images still do scare me sometimes. Sorry you have the images with your OCD, It’s like you are in your own horror Movie for hours sucks.
@Brooke cookie My images look so weird. As if I’m seeing it with my eyes but I know I’m not. They are hazy but look real and they suck me out of reality for a moment
I don’t like when I get those. They happen so fast and leave you feeling horrible but I will say they get better. I seem to get them more when I am having stress and anxiety about something or a lot of in uncertainty on something too. I had one doc that described it to me as having a circus 🤡 in your head that sometimes just comes out with stuff we don’t like and we should just laugh when we get it.
@Schoolie93 The images are so weird and wacky. Makes me feel like something is wrong with my head. Feels like I’m seeing it with my eyes but I know it’s imaginary
@ObsessivePenguin Yeah, the images feel real its really creepy. I don’t know why but pure OCD feels real when it’s not , it’s Terrible.
You are not alone, unfortunately most of us on this app are fighting the same fight. For me, it’s intrusive thoughts that trigger anxiety and endless rumination.
@Anonymous Do you have the image flashes? They’re so fast and vivid :(
@ObsessivePenguin Occasionally! But you are not alone, we are all here for you
@Anonymous The image flash has made me feel mad
I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences
My ocd has been flaring up lately I’ve noticed some things that I don’t know if it’s ocd or something else whenever I seen someone like drugged or sick or just not “normal” I feel like or get scared that’s gonna end up being me? Does that make sense or then after a few minutes I feel like I’m them I don’t know exactly how to explain it I feel like I’m gonna start acting crazy or like I act weird or like them ? Idk exactly how to explain it and I have such a drop in my stomach thinking of it because it makes me feel insane, I haven’t had such an ocd episode so it’s getting hard again and making me feel insane specially because I don’t know how to explain this that I feel, I feel so scared rn can someone please comment on this?
I’ve always had OCD, and for most of my life it was little things that seemed manageable at the time or something that would phase out of my head within a couple days/weeks/months. But, the older I got the more severe it became, I’d find myself collapsing deeper and deeper within my own head trying to out think the thoughts that bothered me. About a year ago I had a thought that rattled me to my core. My brothers and I were watching a movie in our mother’s room when my youngest brother turned to me to say something. His close proximity to me triggered a fleeting sexually explicit image in my head and that thought caused me to spiral. Asking questions like, “are you attracted to your minor brother? Are you attracted to minors? Are you gay? Etc.” a couple days went by and my mental stability continued to crumble until I broke down to my mother, she was understanding and we found a a psychiatrist. I got on medication and for a while everything was slowly but surely trending in a positive direction. The thoughts would still pop into my head but they were becoming more manageable. As we all know OCD and mental illness comes in waves. Currently my OCD has been pretty severe. I feel those intrusive thoughts latching on in my head and it’s been very hard to kick them. It’s gotten to the point where I find myself being uncomfortable being in close proximity with my little brother because I feel as though I am capable of harming him in any way. And the more uncomfortable I become being around him the more I find myself lashing out in anger towards the people I care about the most. Those moments of anger cause me to spiral even farther as my head fills with ideas like “what if you are capable of hurting someone or even murdering them?” There’s times where these thoughts rattle me so much that I feel like it would be better to be in prison where I couldn’t harm someone or that even being dead would be a better solution than possibly running the risk of hurting someone in my life I care about. This is about the jist of it, a majority of the OCD I have is centered around the idea that I am capable of harming my little brother physically, mentally, sexually. It’s been exhausting and it feels like there is no end in sight.
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