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- Theocdvirgo
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- 169d ago
STD contamination fears
Does anyone else have really bad contamination OCD surrounding stds? Because I can hardly find anything about it on here.
Does anyone else have really bad contamination OCD surrounding stds? Because I can hardly find anything about it on here.
I get very worried about this and my partner will get upset sometimes cause we've been together for 7 yrs and doesn't understand why I would be scared if I'm not cheating. I can get a test and it say negative and I'll just assume the virus or whatever just isn't detectible yet and I'll probably be positive in a few months. I've done this a lot with HIV and hepatitis. I'm still not sure I don't have them but I literally just got tested a week ago š„“ also I work in a dental office and see blood all the time so that def doesn't help.
@_sarah_ I relate to this so much! My partner and I have been together for 6 years and I still struggle with std fears and chronic testing.
That is my biggest fear, I canāt tell you how many hiv tests Iāve done within a year for the most surreal reasons I never seem to accept that I donāt have it and stop panicking
Oh yeah- that was a big one for me. Paranoid about every ingrown hair. Terrified of sleeping with anybody who had slept with anybody else. It significantly impacted my relationships and how I chose a partner. Itās a tough one to cope with.
This is a big part of my contamination OCD. Itās been hard dating. I took some time off from dating when my OCD was at its peak. I havenāt slept with a new person in 6 years, itās tough to explain to my friends why I havenāt been dating. Iāve been slowly getting back on the apps though after doing exposure therapy
I went to a traumatic experience 8 years ago, however I never struggled with anything at the time, however last year i started to get intrusive thoughts about STDs, I got tested for hiv hsv2 and 1, went to get a cervix examination at a professional OBGYN everything is clean however I keep thinking I got something now I am obsessing over HPV and it's driving me crazy I don't sleep at night I don't get out of the bed in the day all I do is being afraid to contaminat my husband who I just married, I went to get my nails done and I got cut i freaked out over the STDs I previously tested ,and i want to get tested again, I keep thinking how in few years he will be sick and it's all my fault , and that i ruined his life and he will never forgive me I am taking medication for my anxiety and depression , does anyone have the same thing? Is it normal? Does anyone know how to deal with this?
As the title suggests, my OCD acts up whenever bodily fluids are involved, including my own. š It has caused me difficulties in my relationship. My partner is perfectly content with the pace we are at regarding intimacy and is incredibly patient with me; however, I can react at even the slightest idea of getting ācontaminatedā with, say, my partnerās fluids. ā¹ļø Early in our relationship, even when we were hugging fully clothed, I worried about contamination (and also magically āgetting pregnantāā ļø) because our bodies were touching at the crotch area. Iām doing better now, but Iāve been unable to engage in certain acts because of it. My partner is not asking for anythingāin fact, he is perfectly content waiting until marriage! Iām more so asking for my sake. I just know that when the time DOES arrive that we both want to get more intimateāeven if that means just removing more clothing,āI know I will be terrified of getting contaminated. Today, for example, while kissing, I accidentally bit his lip and tasted blood. INSTANTLY the mood was destroyed and I couldnāt function properly. I felt so much guilt for being this disturbed because itās my PARTNER, of all people, but I began worrying about STDs. Does anyone have any tips? My OCD mainly fixates on pregnancy and STDs here.
My OCD makes it hard for me to have sex with my partner. I constantly worry about things like STDās and Iām a Christian. Sex outside of marriage is a no noā¦ but the worry of catching STDās is my biggest fear and Iām afraid to have sex as a resultā¦ itās been this way for years and even after theyāve tested I still fearā¦ wasting a condom brings me no sense of comfort. I feel like Iām about to lose my boyfriend over this and he just doesnāt get itā¦ anyone relate with this? Any advice?
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