STD contamination fears

I get very worried about this and my partner will get upset sometimes cause we've been together for 7 yrs and doesn't understand why I would be scared if I'm not cheating. I can get a test and it say negative and I'll just assume the virus or whatever just isn't detectible yet and I'll probably be positive in a few months. I've done this a lot with HIV and hepatitis. I'm still not sure I don't have them but I literally just got tested a week ago 🥴 also I work in a dental office and see blood all the time so that def doesn't help.

That is my biggest fear, I can’t tell you how many hiv tests I’ve done within a year for the most surreal reasons I never seem to accept that I don’t have it and stop panicking

Oh yeah- that was a big one for me. Paranoid about every ingrown hair. Terrified of sleeping with anybody who had slept with anybody else. It significantly impacted my relationships and how I chose a partner. It’s a tough one to cope with.

This is a big part of my contamination OCD. It’s been hard dating. I took some time off from dating when my OCD was at its peak. I haven’t slept with a new person in 6 years, it’s tough to explain to my friends why I haven’t been dating. I’ve been slowly getting back on the apps though after doing exposure therapy