Does anyone have any tips when it comes to rumination and trying to figure out the answer in my head related to HOCD? It's literally all I think about all day every day. It feels like I'm just wasting my life in my head.
I m dealing with this for 4 years. I think this app is a compulsion right now for me. I stopped searching for an answer because I was tired of searching for an answer and being on my phone for like 4 hours having the compulsion of needing the answer…. I m trying to say to myself that I could be gay and if I m, than it s okay because you will be happy. You ll be happy if you re gay or not it doesn’t matter
The longer you try to figure out the answer in your mind, the more stuck you will be. You have to accept the uncertainty and understand that “maybe it could be, maybe it couldn’t be”. A great way to stop the rumination is to practice being mindful and aware of when you are ruminating. Ruminating and trying to solve are compulsions and will unfortunately leave you stuck. Have you seen an OCD specialist yet? They are great with helping you create an ERP plan and learning how to not respond to your thoughts.
@Robyn🪴🧘🏻♀️🧠 What about forcing attraction? I feel like whenever I’m in public I try to force attraction with every girl I’m with.
@WeAllGotThis10 Me too same boat as you
@WeAllGotThis10 That all goes along with the doubt caused by OCD. A therapist will be able to help you better than I can, but when you can manage the compulsions and get them to zero, you can stop the cycle and everything else that comes with it. ERP and mindfulness are the only thing that ever worked for me. I’ve suffered at least 5 OCD subtypes since I was 11 and I’m almost 39 now.
NOCD does a 15 minute free call to talk with you about your OCD and your information. They will then pair you with a therapist that is licensed to practice in your area. NOCD therapists specialize in ERP to help you recover from OCD. They take a variety of insurances but if you do not have insurance, they also have payment plans.
I haven’t no, how would I start with that?
https://www.treatmyocd.com you can click on “book a free call”.😀
How long have you had this for
Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Im so scared of not being able to control my feelings, im scared I can't resist S and its giving me anxiety and making me cry. Sometimes when i think of those sexual scenarios with S or I get those thoughts my mind tells me to smile because i like it because I find it funny. It makes me doubt myself all over again. Like I'm always like I need to test if I'd feel aroused to intimate scenarios with S, lately im trying to fight this urge to test and test but my mind is like "just do it this once so you can be sure. I can never watch anything romantic or sexual or whatever because my mind would be like "you and S" or sometimes I'm just enjoying time with my bf and im like " yes we can just have a sneaky cheating thing thats ok" and it makes me want to figure it out to find an answer a solution because idk it just does like I need to find the meaning of it if it means the truth and all. Im worried im just an awful person and these thoughts just ruin my quality of life . Today i had a crisis where i ended up doinf swlf harm, I'm so scared of finding someone that's not my boyfriend desirable or sexual appealing or whatever it is, I also have bodily reactions when I try to imagine and test my reaction to scenarios. Now i keep groing everytime and I dont know why but i have this sensation and I dont want to havebit especially when its something S related. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this? Is this ROCD? What should i do?
How can I deal with False Memory OCD? I am struggling with ruminating thoughts, and trying to figure out false memories! How can I enjoy my day without figuring it out?
I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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